Friday 30 December 2011
Wednesday 28 December 2011
Nelly Furtudo – Wait for you
Choices. How many of us ponder at those we made, and whether we would have changed the decisions made, be they the small ones or those that appeared to have a larger impact.
Some of these choices have us sobbing in the darkness of the night where the dawn will never see your tears whilst others you wonder what happened to change you so much that you never noticed.
What is love and how much would you sacrifice for it, if you claim to follow a religion would your religion mean more to you then the tangible world, or is what the world holds more important and faith just something to believe in when all else fails.
Choices. How many of us ponder at those we made, and whether we would have changed the decisions made, be they the small ones or those that appeared to have a larger impact.
Some of these choices have us sobbing in the darkness of the night where the dawn will never see your tears whilst others you wonder what happened to change you so much that you never noticed.
What is love and how much would you sacrifice for it, if you claim to follow a religion would your religion mean more to you then the tangible world, or is what the world holds more important and faith just something to believe in when all else fails.
Friday 23 December 2011
Thursday 22 December 2011
Arjun – Vampire
Well I’ve been told I’m a private person, I keep everything inside and learn my lessons as I see fit, maybe I have gained wisdom via this, although maybe I have pride as I don’t share things with other folk, even those who class themselves as being close to me.
At this rate I’m just gonna be alone for the lack of trust I hold with others.
Some would blame my father, some would blame the folk who were racist against my family due to the melanin in our skin and some would say I’m fine as I am and just see me as the ice queen as I have been dubbed many a time, who has become tired of empty words and hopes that the choice I made several years ago doesn’t backfire should I stop believing in God and go jump off a log somewhere as who cares about redemption if there is no point in it at the end of the day...
Rant over
Take care folk
Well I’ve been told I’m a private person, I keep everything inside and learn my lessons as I see fit, maybe I have gained wisdom via this, although maybe I have pride as I don’t share things with other folk, even those who class themselves as being close to me.
At this rate I’m just gonna be alone for the lack of trust I hold with others.
Some would blame my father, some would blame the folk who were racist against my family due to the melanin in our skin and some would say I’m fine as I am and just see me as the ice queen as I have been dubbed many a time, who has become tired of empty words and hopes that the choice I made several years ago doesn’t backfire should I stop believing in God and go jump off a log somewhere as who cares about redemption if there is no point in it at the end of the day...
Rant over
Take care folk
Wednesday 21 December 2011
Jay Sean - One Night
Well I was discussing politics with someone today and said politicians should be forced to live in the most deprived area of whichever area they represent. That way they can definitely say they made some changes, as you are as strong as your weakest link and improving the life for those whom have it the hardest would be helping society from where it needs to be helped, the inside.
Well people now think I'm a radical but my opinion is that the politicians work for the people and in today's society a lot of them, regardless of which country have forgotten this key fact.
They say that power, money and fame corrupt folk, I have none of them so maybe I just cannot understand this disease, however wouldn't this just essentially mean that a new council would be needed, or maybe they should have helped each other by not isolating ourselves in our houses where the people (whom gave us that position) are not able to access unless it's through a barrage of other folk and even then all things must be doctored to avoid getting sidelined or something unfortunate happening due the way networking appears to be a system in politics too.
So seeing as I am in no position to be corrupted I guess it's easy for me to say I hate corrupted folk and the best way to help the corrupted is stop them from becoming corrupt, so are we not standing up enough as a people or is it true an individual who must lead us all, for the sheep we are trained to be in state schools it's hard to break the mold they made us into ...
Well I was discussing politics with someone today and said politicians should be forced to live in the most deprived area of whichever area they represent. That way they can definitely say they made some changes, as you are as strong as your weakest link and improving the life for those whom have it the hardest would be helping society from where it needs to be helped, the inside.
Well people now think I'm a radical but my opinion is that the politicians work for the people and in today's society a lot of them, regardless of which country have forgotten this key fact.
They say that power, money and fame corrupt folk, I have none of them so maybe I just cannot understand this disease, however wouldn't this just essentially mean that a new council would be needed, or maybe they should have helped each other by not isolating ourselves in our houses where the people (whom gave us that position) are not able to access unless it's through a barrage of other folk and even then all things must be doctored to avoid getting sidelined or something unfortunate happening due the way networking appears to be a system in politics too.
So seeing as I am in no position to be corrupted I guess it's easy for me to say I hate corrupted folk and the best way to help the corrupted is stop them from becoming corrupt, so are we not standing up enough as a people or is it true an individual who must lead us all, for the sheep we are trained to be in state schools it's hard to break the mold they made us into ...
Tuesday 20 December 2011
Monday 19 December 2011
Friday 16 December 2011
Thursday 15 December 2011
Pyaar Hai inspired by Jay Sean Ride It (Hindi Version) Lyrics + Translat...
I think this is going to become people looking at my music tastes ... meh
aplam chaplam.. usha-lata mangeshkar - c.ramchandra-azaad 1955 آزاد
Azaad - Aplam Chaplam
Okay well I was thinking about the whole love at first sight thing as I was speaking to my brother about it.
My argument is that it only seems to be guys that are more affected by it, his argument is no both genders are, he just has weird sisters.
However I have yet to see girls go after guys the way guys do to girls. Girls may be deceived (be it by their heart or the guy) however they don't just rush into the whole "I loved you as soon as I saw you" (although that is not to say that they might have seen some distinguishing characteristics)
And whilst I continue to ponder this I'm going to watch some goldie oldie songs ^_^. Enjoy!
Okay well I was thinking about the whole love at first sight thing as I was speaking to my brother about it.
My argument is that it only seems to be guys that are more affected by it, his argument is no both genders are, he just has weird sisters.
However I have yet to see girls go after guys the way guys do to girls. Girls may be deceived (be it by their heart or the guy) however they don't just rush into the whole "I loved you as soon as I saw you" (although that is not to say that they might have seen some distinguishing characteristics)
And whilst I continue to ponder this I'm going to watch some goldie oldie songs ^_^. Enjoy!
Wednesday 14 December 2011
Pixie Lott – What do you take me for
Can guys and girls be friends, I just watched a video on youtube, that a friend posted on facebook:
The video seems to indicate that all girls say yes and all guys say no. It then carries on to where they ask the girls if any of their guy friends fancied them, to which they said ys their guy friends did ... and thus an obvious conclusion was made.
Well some of my friends are guys and some are ladies, and I don’t think any of them fancy me (yes this includes those of bisexual or homosexual orientation). This may be due to the fact that I consider friends family and would wants to get involved with family in such a manner, nobody exactly ...
What I find confusing is that most people cannot understand this. I’m not flirtatious I’m trying to be friendly in a place where most people are miserable for no good reason to be honest, and seeing as I have to deal with folk much of the much I may as well try and deal with them in a friendly manner, they’ll be nicer towards me and thus both our days will be happier. And somewhere across the way I’ll make a friend or learn a lesson. I have yet to learn how to impart lessons to folk, seeing as sometimes I do ponder at how silly some folk can be (I consider myself pretty unlearned in life, yet there are more unlearned people then me).
Maybe it is society which is teaching the next generation to have less inhibitions and so they just express anything and everything regardless of whether these are real feelings or just a passing thought which on consideration would have never been acted upon under due consideration and thus less scarring would have been done and the cycle would not be as harsh for teh generation after this ... but those are just my thoughts on the matter.
Can guys and girls be friends, I just watched a video on youtube, that a friend posted on facebook:
The video seems to indicate that all girls say yes and all guys say no. It then carries on to where they ask the girls if any of their guy friends fancied them, to which they said ys their guy friends did ... and thus an obvious conclusion was made.
Well some of my friends are guys and some are ladies, and I don’t think any of them fancy me (yes this includes those of bisexual or homosexual orientation). This may be due to the fact that I consider friends family and would wants to get involved with family in such a manner, nobody exactly ...
What I find confusing is that most people cannot understand this. I’m not flirtatious I’m trying to be friendly in a place where most people are miserable for no good reason to be honest, and seeing as I have to deal with folk much of the much I may as well try and deal with them in a friendly manner, they’ll be nicer towards me and thus both our days will be happier. And somewhere across the way I’ll make a friend or learn a lesson. I have yet to learn how to impart lessons to folk, seeing as sometimes I do ponder at how silly some folk can be (I consider myself pretty unlearned in life, yet there are more unlearned people then me).
Maybe it is society which is teaching the next generation to have less inhibitions and so they just express anything and everything regardless of whether these are real feelings or just a passing thought which on consideration would have never been acted upon under due consideration and thus less scarring would have been done and the cycle would not be as harsh for teh generation after this ... but those are just my thoughts on the matter.
Tuesday 13 December 2011
Big Sean ft Chris Brown – My Last
Let’s see, I was speaking to my mum who told me something as we were talking about personas. Hers is one that is very much forward so people can see how she is and so they change themselves to reflect this.
My mum then told me I hide me, inside me and so no one knows. However with society being the way they assume you are a doormat and thus treat you in this same fashion. And then I get angry and people are surprised at what I may/may not do.
I know I do ponder at what happened to me over the years, as I can still see me in my kiddie videos where I’m a loud mouth and loved being centre of stage, to me now, who behind the scenes is still a bit whacky but I prefer not being in the limelight.
Apparently I am also diplomatic in the way that I mange not to answer a direct question, but straight talking too. It’s bizarre I guess seeing as I’ve never looked at myself personally but try and see myself through other’s eyes. However another person is just a reflection of me within them and then seeing me, which can mean I am just putting me in the light I wish to be.
Am I too old to still be in this stage of self discovery, I really need to be by myself, I know I have yet to develop mentally which is really holding me back, as my distrust in people is so high.
Let’s see, I was speaking to my mum who told me something as we were talking about personas. Hers is one that is very much forward so people can see how she is and so they change themselves to reflect this.
My mum then told me I hide me, inside me and so no one knows. However with society being the way they assume you are a doormat and thus treat you in this same fashion. And then I get angry and people are surprised at what I may/may not do.
I know I do ponder at what happened to me over the years, as I can still see me in my kiddie videos where I’m a loud mouth and loved being centre of stage, to me now, who behind the scenes is still a bit whacky but I prefer not being in the limelight.
Apparently I am also diplomatic in the way that I mange not to answer a direct question, but straight talking too. It’s bizarre I guess seeing as I’ve never looked at myself personally but try and see myself through other’s eyes. However another person is just a reflection of me within them and then seeing me, which can mean I am just putting me in the light I wish to be.
Am I too old to still be in this stage of self discovery, I really need to be by myself, I know I have yet to develop mentally which is really holding me back, as my distrust in people is so high.
Friday 9 December 2011
Kelly Rowland – Lay it on Me
Okay well update wise, erm nothing much really, just taking apart part of the extension for the house as the council don’t like the fact that it’s already been up for years, stating that the neighbour (who’s in USA whilst we’re in the UK) feels his lifestyle is being affected … oh well people have worse problems in the world so although it’s not great having no money to pay a builder and this having to take apart the family home in the cold is slightly depressing I’m thankful that I have what I have.
Makes you aware of what things people worry about in this world, and I can only hope that I become a better person having faced the small hardships I face.
It seems my whole life is rotating around getting hitched at the mo, I’m becoming quite peeved with the whole thing, seeing as how much people just want me to go fall in love, or bothering me, I don’t have a lovely voice and I don’t flirt with folk, I need to find a Will to my Grace, although apart from the fact I’m nothing like Grace …
Still gotta learn how to cook, all the weirdoes that seem to think I want a bf is beyond me, I’ve reached my years not going down that route, I’m neither disillusioned nor desperate to go outside the binds of marriage to find a partner.
Having spoken to guys, it seems that guys are waiting for some click, whatever guys may say, they have weak hearts expecting Bollywood love, as much as the fairytale love with songs is the background sounds great, it’s not great and why would you want to stumble into a marriage under the illusion of love, and later discover that it wasn’t as you thought it was, I’d rather have a guy who goes into it with open eyes and thus a more stable relationship is formed.
Meh last topic, I want an xbox kinect, so if anyone wants to give me an early birthday present you know what to get me ^_^
That’s all folks, toodles o/
Okay well update wise, erm nothing much really, just taking apart part of the extension for the house as the council don’t like the fact that it’s already been up for years, stating that the neighbour (who’s in USA whilst we’re in the UK) feels his lifestyle is being affected … oh well people have worse problems in the world so although it’s not great having no money to pay a builder and this having to take apart the family home in the cold is slightly depressing I’m thankful that I have what I have.
Makes you aware of what things people worry about in this world, and I can only hope that I become a better person having faced the small hardships I face.
It seems my whole life is rotating around getting hitched at the mo, I’m becoming quite peeved with the whole thing, seeing as how much people just want me to go fall in love, or bothering me, I don’t have a lovely voice and I don’t flirt with folk, I need to find a Will to my Grace, although apart from the fact I’m nothing like Grace …
Still gotta learn how to cook, all the weirdoes that seem to think I want a bf is beyond me, I’ve reached my years not going down that route, I’m neither disillusioned nor desperate to go outside the binds of marriage to find a partner.
Having spoken to guys, it seems that guys are waiting for some click, whatever guys may say, they have weak hearts expecting Bollywood love, as much as the fairytale love with songs is the background sounds great, it’s not great and why would you want to stumble into a marriage under the illusion of love, and later discover that it wasn’t as you thought it was, I’d rather have a guy who goes into it with open eyes and thus a more stable relationship is formed.
Meh last topic, I want an xbox kinect, so if anyone wants to give me an early birthday present you know what to get me ^_^
That’s all folks, toodles o/
Monday 21 November 2011
Song – RA One – Chammak Challo
Well hey it’s been some time. What to write, what to write, what’s amusing is, I generally don’t let stuff that’s too personal to make it onto this page, so pretty much empty with this.
Meh, well let’s see, the whole matrimonial site thing is still happening, I got a tad miffed and so changed my profile and told folk I’m not pretty so if they looking for that to not contact me, I then got some young un tell me how I shouldn’t write a profile and that I should try and be as attractive as possible, he didn’t get me when I said I’d rather have a guy that can see past the thorns rather then someone who requires the soft approach. Then gave him a lecture and shut him up.
One guy was a consummate liar and I felt slimy for even thinking anything positive about him, another starting stalking me like a freak. So then I feel like maybe I’m being mean. So made my profile invisible as the drama was too much, I didn’t realise there are so many guys who are melodramatic whilst stating they are not so. Weird saps all of them. Most of them even start talking about romance and you’re a bit like, err, I don’t even know your name …
What’s even more bizarre I’m not an attractive person so if I get this for just being my tomboyish self I feel sorry for pretty folk, they must have a nightmare, no wonder people appear to be arrogant or vain, it’s to avoid these types of people …
So why do people even bother trying to get into this whole swimming pool of weirdoes, why has the halal become so hard that you just feel like giving up and rather remain single then taint my character by going in these waters. So do I just give up or does one still try and find a guy in a world where I don’t see any guy as attractive and most of them are just looking for some weird “click” yes I don’t understand that terminology.
Oh well I think I’ll give up the thread here seeing as this took several days to type in the first place and I doubt I actually had any flow ^_^
Toodles folk and look after one another! o/
Well hey it’s been some time. What to write, what to write, what’s amusing is, I generally don’t let stuff that’s too personal to make it onto this page, so pretty much empty with this.
Meh, well let’s see, the whole matrimonial site thing is still happening, I got a tad miffed and so changed my profile and told folk I’m not pretty so if they looking for that to not contact me, I then got some young un tell me how I shouldn’t write a profile and that I should try and be as attractive as possible, he didn’t get me when I said I’d rather have a guy that can see past the thorns rather then someone who requires the soft approach. Then gave him a lecture and shut him up.
One guy was a consummate liar and I felt slimy for even thinking anything positive about him, another starting stalking me like a freak. So then I feel like maybe I’m being mean. So made my profile invisible as the drama was too much, I didn’t realise there are so many guys who are melodramatic whilst stating they are not so. Weird saps all of them. Most of them even start talking about romance and you’re a bit like, err, I don’t even know your name …
What’s even more bizarre I’m not an attractive person so if I get this for just being my tomboyish self I feel sorry for pretty folk, they must have a nightmare, no wonder people appear to be arrogant or vain, it’s to avoid these types of people …
So why do people even bother trying to get into this whole swimming pool of weirdoes, why has the halal become so hard that you just feel like giving up and rather remain single then taint my character by going in these waters. So do I just give up or does one still try and find a guy in a world where I don’t see any guy as attractive and most of them are just looking for some weird “click” yes I don’t understand that terminology.
Oh well I think I’ll give up the thread here seeing as this took several days to type in the first place and I doubt I actually had any flow ^_^
Toodles folk and look after one another! o/
Friday 7 October 2011
Pillar - Frontline
Hey all!
Long time I know, with whoever actually reads this, maybe I'm just writing to my best friend google ...
Anyhow what do I care about at the moment, erm, well I can finally kneel, I never understood how much I took this for granted!
Also doing up the house, well I'm doing is stripping the paint from the skirting board and then having to varnish it and paint the walls ...
And then you have the everlasteing search for the other half ... meh ... to think when this finishes, it'll be kids and then having to look after them and the cycle continues, I wonder if folk ever feel pressured to get hitched do we ever just jump to escape the rush only to release the cycle is never going to end.
Maybe the most bizarre thing I find is that the potentials all seem to become friends rather then potentials which is weird, the only time I kind of think to myself that those who pay attention to star signs would totally place me as the Aquarian that I am.
Oh well lost my trail of thought so I'm lost in my mind, everyone can have a lovely weekend!
Hey all!
Long time I know, with whoever actually reads this, maybe I'm just writing to my best friend google ...
Anyhow what do I care about at the moment, erm, well I can finally kneel, I never understood how much I took this for granted!
Also doing up the house, well I'm doing is stripping the paint from the skirting board and then having to varnish it and paint the walls ...
And then you have the everlasteing search for the other half ... meh ... to think when this finishes, it'll be kids and then having to look after them and the cycle continues, I wonder if folk ever feel pressured to get hitched do we ever just jump to escape the rush only to release the cycle is never going to end.
Maybe the most bizarre thing I find is that the potentials all seem to become friends rather then potentials which is weird, the only time I kind of think to myself that those who pay attention to star signs would totally place me as the Aquarian that I am.
Oh well lost my trail of thought so I'm lost in my mind, everyone can have a lovely weekend!
Sunday 11 September 2011
Chrishan - I tried
Okay well what's happenning in the land that is my mind.
Apologies for not3 updating it became a out of site, out of mind.
Well anyhow my mum told me the other day, the best way to lose a friend is to give them money, unfortunately this was after I gave money to a friend, and now I ponder as to whether I lost the friendship and the money or whether I'll ever get it back, it'll take me a few months to back sorted again and anyone who knows me, knows I'm OCD about it, so abit argh but trying to maintain patience, I only hope I pass this test and so don't condemn another should they need the same thing.
Anyhow, take care folk, I've gone domestic for the day, so doing everything bar cooking (maybe I'll venture there one day, but today is not that day!)
Toodles :D
Okay well what's happenning in the land that is my mind.
Apologies for not3 updating it became a out of site, out of mind.
Well anyhow my mum told me the other day, the best way to lose a friend is to give them money, unfortunately this was after I gave money to a friend, and now I ponder as to whether I lost the friendship and the money or whether I'll ever get it back, it'll take me a few months to back sorted again and anyone who knows me, knows I'm OCD about it, so abit argh but trying to maintain patience, I only hope I pass this test and so don't condemn another should they need the same thing.
Anyhow, take care folk, I've gone domestic for the day, so doing everything bar cooking (maybe I'll venture there one day, but today is not that day!)
Toodles :D
Wednesday 17 August 2011
Lupe Fiasco - Words I Never Said ft. Skylar Grey
Hey folk,
Just thought I'd do a quick update, loving Ramadhan, is the best month after all :D
I think I've seen more folk within this month then in the rest of the year. However the exciting time continues, looking within myself to reflect on what I have done and what I plan to do, wondering on each step trying to make good actions a habit and thus become a better person in the end.
Anyhow I'm gone, take care, and look after those around you!
Hey folk,
Just thought I'd do a quick update, loving Ramadhan, is the best month after all :D
I think I've seen more folk within this month then in the rest of the year. However the exciting time continues, looking within myself to reflect on what I have done and what I plan to do, wondering on each step trying to make good actions a habit and thus become a better person in the end.
Anyhow I'm gone, take care, and look after those around you!
Saturday 6 August 2011
Sami Yusuf - Salaam
Okay well for those who know it's Ramdhan, for those who don't well you just read it!
The first few days leading upto the month I was ill so 3 days of complete bedrest, totally makes me appreciates my body. And then the fasting began, as per usual the hardest part of the fast is not the act of fasting, people across the world deal with tougher trials this physical loss of food doesn't seem to matter that much to me, although I try not to walk past a bakery!
However having spoken to folk this can be quite a trial so maybe I shouldn't discount it, the only thing I know is because I've been fasting since I was young it's something that strikes me as being hard whereas it might do for other folk.
Anyway back to the point, the hardest part that I find is that where you have to monitor yourself, which I should be doing anyway, however something that you start looking at so much more, a time when you make the time to sit, think and comtemplate yourself as a person, for each person this varies.
So in all I'm having loads of me time, half scared as I find my own mind a scary place, having weird dreams and hoping they don't mean anything scary and wondering whether I'm on teh right path or not.
Anyhow back to my comptemplation.
Take Care folks and may you have a wonderful month
Okay well for those who know it's Ramdhan, for those who don't well you just read it!
The first few days leading upto the month I was ill so 3 days of complete bedrest, totally makes me appreciates my body. And then the fasting began, as per usual the hardest part of the fast is not the act of fasting, people across the world deal with tougher trials this physical loss of food doesn't seem to matter that much to me, although I try not to walk past a bakery!
However having spoken to folk this can be quite a trial so maybe I shouldn't discount it, the only thing I know is because I've been fasting since I was young it's something that strikes me as being hard whereas it might do for other folk.
Anyway back to the point, the hardest part that I find is that where you have to monitor yourself, which I should be doing anyway, however something that you start looking at so much more, a time when you make the time to sit, think and comtemplate yourself as a person, for each person this varies.
So in all I'm having loads of me time, half scared as I find my own mind a scary place, having weird dreams and hoping they don't mean anything scary and wondering whether I'm on teh right path or not.
Anyhow back to my comptemplation.
Take Care folks and may you have a wonderful month
Tuesday 26 July 2011
Guano Apes - You can't stop me
Hmm okay well I stopped for a while again ... no excuses I just did, my boring life is still boring ...
I went to a wedding so had to do the wholemust get the appropiate clothing and getting ready, and because some people believe make up is a necessary tool in life I started looking at this, I'm been told I'm lucky and have a good base to work with so I thought minimalistic, I'm not gonna do much just the eyes, so thta's what I did, although I did do teh whole concealor and foundation thing, no idea if it helped at all, when I looked in the mirror I saw me, so didn't think too much off it, although the best make up is that which cannot be seen right?
Anyhow so ended up doing it for one of my sisters as well, which turned out to be easier then when I was doing it to myself, so styled it all a bit, not sure if she noticed but meh it was all good, she's got great eyes so hopefully I did them some justice!
Ramadhan next week, the chicken meat has been ordered the kebabs will be made, loving it, although I recall the other day when I was messing with the garlic, I think I may be allergic to it, seeing as my eyes start watering and all that, sister found it amusing, nice to know ...
Anywho, take care for now!
Hmm okay well I stopped for a while again ... no excuses I just did, my boring life is still boring ...
I went to a wedding so had to do the wholemust get the appropiate clothing and getting ready, and because some people believe make up is a necessary tool in life I started looking at this, I'm been told I'm lucky and have a good base to work with so I thought minimalistic, I'm not gonna do much just the eyes, so thta's what I did, although I did do teh whole concealor and foundation thing, no idea if it helped at all, when I looked in the mirror I saw me, so didn't think too much off it, although the best make up is that which cannot be seen right?
Anyhow so ended up doing it for one of my sisters as well, which turned out to be easier then when I was doing it to myself, so styled it all a bit, not sure if she noticed but meh it was all good, she's got great eyes so hopefully I did them some justice!
Ramadhan next week, the chicken meat has been ordered the kebabs will be made, loving it, although I recall the other day when I was messing with the garlic, I think I may be allergic to it, seeing as my eyes start watering and all that, sister found it amusing, nice to know ...
Anywho, take care for now!
Sunday 17 July 2011
Rim-K - Harraga
Okay well I'm in a thinking mood, I'm not sure whether women actually having a ticking biological clock or not, however I have been noticing kids quite a lot as of late, this might be because I've had to slow down and thus I'm seeing stuff I don't usually see or even that people keep talking to me about it.
Anyone who knows me, knows I'm scared of kids, the deeper reason being I don't want to be a catalyst for them doing any bad, it only takes one thoughtless action, word, etc and bam the kid's changed. Although this is a double edged sword, the change could be for the better or for the worse.
At a meeting that was held at my sister's place I was looking after the kids (I wasn't part of the meeting so attempting to amuse them) and apparently I was a hit the kids loved me, thought I was totally cool, my sister laughed at me as I got far too excited when they were actually able to play mario kart properly. and as I do this a little bit more often then I used to, people appear to be taking notice. And then I think about me as a taskmaster, as I used to mentor kids and as my own brother was my worst pupil I thought I totally failed, however the kids thought I was fair, so pretty neat, all in all. I just hope it doesn't go to my head and I shall endeveour to be better on the next occasion, should it arise.
And then a totally random chance encounter and I met a guy who had the mind of an 18 month baby, I smiled (again the scared factor thing, who wants to changed someone so pure) and apparently I looked like some famous person and so he was quite happy, I wasn't sure how to feel, was totally not sure what to say or do, so just tried to be me, although I suspect I wasn't great at it.
It just makes me ponder would I be a good mother, or just a great aunt (yes I know need to find a guy first, therein lies the dilemma)
And I'll go back to pondering and playing GemCraft Labyrinth and if you haven't played it, you should totally play it, the most epic game ever ...
http://www.kongregate.com/games/gameinabottle/gemcraft-labyrinth
Take Care folk, toodles o/
Okay well I'm in a thinking mood, I'm not sure whether women actually having a ticking biological clock or not, however I have been noticing kids quite a lot as of late, this might be because I've had to slow down and thus I'm seeing stuff I don't usually see or even that people keep talking to me about it.
Anyone who knows me, knows I'm scared of kids, the deeper reason being I don't want to be a catalyst for them doing any bad, it only takes one thoughtless action, word, etc and bam the kid's changed. Although this is a double edged sword, the change could be for the better or for the worse.
At a meeting that was held at my sister's place I was looking after the kids (I wasn't part of the meeting so attempting to amuse them) and apparently I was a hit the kids loved me, thought I was totally cool, my sister laughed at me as I got far too excited when they were actually able to play mario kart properly. and as I do this a little bit more often then I used to, people appear to be taking notice. And then I think about me as a taskmaster, as I used to mentor kids and as my own brother was my worst pupil I thought I totally failed, however the kids thought I was fair, so pretty neat, all in all. I just hope it doesn't go to my head and I shall endeveour to be better on the next occasion, should it arise.
And then a totally random chance encounter and I met a guy who had the mind of an 18 month baby, I smiled (again the scared factor thing, who wants to changed someone so pure) and apparently I looked like some famous person and so he was quite happy, I wasn't sure how to feel, was totally not sure what to say or do, so just tried to be me, although I suspect I wasn't great at it.
It just makes me ponder would I be a good mother, or just a great aunt (yes I know need to find a guy first, therein lies the dilemma)
And I'll go back to pondering and playing GemCraft Labyrinth and if you haven't played it, you should totally play it, the most epic game ever ...
http://www.kongregate.com/games/gameinabottle/gemcraft-labyrinth
Take Care folk, toodles o/
Tuesday 12 July 2011
Love Spit Love - How soon is now
Well I've been living a very boring life at present, just sleep, work, eat ... I should try and fit study in there somewhere although I'm trying to read ...
Anyhow just an apology from me, I just know if I give up doing daily entries then I will just stop it altogether so I'm trying.
Do have a great day though, I've got Ribena so I'm happy!
Well I've been living a very boring life at present, just sleep, work, eat ... I should try and fit study in there somewhere although I'm trying to read ...
Anyhow just an apology from me, I just know if I give up doing daily entries then I will just stop it altogether so I'm trying.
Do have a great day though, I've got Ribena so I'm happy!
Monday 11 July 2011
Billu Barber - Marjaani
Well hello folks, how's everyone today?
I had such a great weekend, I went to a party and completely lost myself in teh music, forget the silly politics of folks and their nagging ways. Met some folk I didn't know and was pleased with this and renewed some old ties, so if you were there, huzzah.
I loved the comment saying, "I was tired and then I looked at you!" I think it kinda was helped by the fact I was literally running, jumping or dancing (I got sick of trying to placate folk with teh CD Player seeing as they were all whacks and thought they owned the CD player, I could've danced to rock, maybe I should've put some on ...
But had a great time and was happy, Sunday I don't remember, I think I was tired and so was just sorting stuff out, I think, however as long as I'm not intoxicated it's fine!
Anyhow lunchtime!
Well hello folks, how's everyone today?
I had such a great weekend, I went to a party and completely lost myself in teh music, forget the silly politics of folks and their nagging ways. Met some folk I didn't know and was pleased with this and renewed some old ties, so if you were there, huzzah.
I loved the comment saying, "I was tired and then I looked at you!" I think it kinda was helped by the fact I was literally running, jumping or dancing (I got sick of trying to placate folk with teh CD Player seeing as they were all whacks and thought they owned the CD player, I could've danced to rock, maybe I should've put some on ...
But had a great time and was happy, Sunday I don't remember, I think I was tired and so was just sorting stuff out, I think, however as long as I'm not intoxicated it's fine!
Anyhow lunchtime!
Friday 8 July 2011
Shania Twain - That don't impress me much
Okay well someone was speaking to me yesterday about blogs as they wanted to do a private blog (ie they just didn't want people to know who they were) made me remember my thoughts and I never came to any kind of conclusion as there are pros and cons to both, I definitely wouldn't want to share very private thoughts and then possibly hurt someone over it later.
Hmm ... and I pondered relationships yesterday, I was just about to go to bed yesterday and my brother rang, "I need a lift", what we do for family I went and threw cold water in my face had some sugar to eat and then went out, in my PJs, to go pick up my adoring little brother (adoring yeah right!) however although it seems like a small thing for someone like me, how do people who travel quite late manage to do it if they're on their own, do have folk waiting at home who ask after them to make sure they're safe and everything. Just so many folk you see who live each day, some chasing a material dream and some chasing an elusive desire not knowing whther their heart is true or not but believe themselves to follow it, even if it is blind.
Am I being far too cynical of emotion, I got called pragmatic on some occasions and cold on others, is it really right to follow a desire which you may not even know what it is, for who can teach love if it's not a feeling we can emit to others. And i don't mean just the couple love for all those weirdoes, but those who know me, know I mean love for humanity, and the rest of the universe (or multiverse depending on what you believe), so even those folk that I dislike ...
Anyhow it's a beautiful day, to mess up the hair or not, I do have to go out later, hmm ...
Toodles fair folk o/
Okay well someone was speaking to me yesterday about blogs as they wanted to do a private blog (ie they just didn't want people to know who they were) made me remember my thoughts and I never came to any kind of conclusion as there are pros and cons to both, I definitely wouldn't want to share very private thoughts and then possibly hurt someone over it later.
Hmm ... and I pondered relationships yesterday, I was just about to go to bed yesterday and my brother rang, "I need a lift", what we do for family I went and threw cold water in my face had some sugar to eat and then went out, in my PJs, to go pick up my adoring little brother (adoring yeah right!) however although it seems like a small thing for someone like me, how do people who travel quite late manage to do it if they're on their own, do have folk waiting at home who ask after them to make sure they're safe and everything. Just so many folk you see who live each day, some chasing a material dream and some chasing an elusive desire not knowing whther their heart is true or not but believe themselves to follow it, even if it is blind.
Am I being far too cynical of emotion, I got called pragmatic on some occasions and cold on others, is it really right to follow a desire which you may not even know what it is, for who can teach love if it's not a feeling we can emit to others. And i don't mean just the couple love for all those weirdoes, but those who know me, know I mean love for humanity, and the rest of the universe (or multiverse depending on what you believe), so even those folk that I dislike ...
Anyhow it's a beautiful day, to mess up the hair or not, I do have to go out later, hmm ...
Toodles fair folk o/
Thursday 7 July 2011
Mohammed Lamine - Mon Bled
Okay blog for the day, I'm feeling silly at the mo, just because I am. I found it bizarre today as someone started repeating my mannerisms back at me and not sure what I thought of it, I tend to put myself down quite a lot.
Hmm such a weird thing to encounter and it'll be one of those things I'll ponder for quite some time about this ...
What else is happening, it's the anniversary of 7/7 and what do I see on the news, more MoD stuff, this is a time to remember the mistakes of the past and help unite the communities, rather then highlightening another reason why people should possibly attack other peoples' way of life
Okay blog for the day, I'm feeling silly at the mo, just because I am. I found it bizarre today as someone started repeating my mannerisms back at me and not sure what I thought of it, I tend to put myself down quite a lot.
Hmm such a weird thing to encounter and it'll be one of those things I'll ponder for quite some time about this ...
What else is happening, it's the anniversary of 7/7 and what do I see on the news, more MoD stuff, this is a time to remember the mistakes of the past and help unite the communities, rather then highlightening another reason why people should possibly attack other peoples' way of life
Tuesday 5 July 2011
Stereo Nation - Galan Goriya
Okay well I wasn't sure what to write about today, well actually I did but totally forgot and so I thought about it and by chance something happened.
I realised that sometimes you ponder at why those you rever are actually not what you place them to be, and at times you are better then them regardless of how worthless your own character seems to be, which makes you wonder what humanity has reached that worthless are higher then the revered.
Maybe I'll be able to take a compliment one day but that day is not today, that's all, toddles and double deckers rock!
Okay well I wasn't sure what to write about today, well actually I did but totally forgot and so I thought about it and by chance something happened.
I realised that sometimes you ponder at why those you rever are actually not what you place them to be, and at times you are better then them regardless of how worthless your own character seems to be, which makes you wonder what humanity has reached that worthless are higher then the revered.
Maybe I'll be able to take a compliment one day but that day is not today, that's all, toddles and double deckers rock!
Monday 4 July 2011
Chipmunk (ft Lock Essien) - Beast
Okay well I had time and felt like I should update if fo no other reason then just to rant without boring some random person who doesn't want to listen to me.
Birthdays there are quite a few of them at the mo, friend recently had one and seeing as I kinda forget and snail mail takes ages, I just went a got a ecard gift thing, money went to charity (kinda half being lazy and half trying to be nice to the fair folk of the world).
Anyone who knows me, knows I don't celebrate my birthday, I think only my family and 2 other people even knew when it was (not sure if I should be insulted that my supposed friends had no idea or whether they were being sweet and so respecting my wishes - I'm sticking to the later at present). Why do folk celebrate this, the only marked ages that make any sense to me are those when you can vote and when you can drive and possibly a pension, although me think that can differ for different folk (it's like saying do I think the Queen deserves a pension - not on top of her salary at present!) However age, it's something that could possibly mark wisdom however I know plenty of younger folk who are much wiser and older folk who are still stuck in childhood, or is it that age when we can say we are responisble for our own actions for those of sound mind, be these good or bad (here's hoping good prevails!)
And thanks to the wonderful teacher's strike I got id'd for buying some ibuprofen, nice (not!) my sister had a right laugh out of it though, seriously I don't look 16! Some 16 year old may look decades older then they are, I'm not one of them! ALthough apparently I'm gonna love it when I'm a biddy ... right and here was me thinking old age woohoo me and my purple brolly. I wonder if it relates to our diet etc, so if I started smoking etc, would I look my supposed age, or am I looking this way becuase I refrain from that which most of my age group do/did?
Anywho that's all for now, have a wonderful week folk :D
Okay well I had time and felt like I should update if fo no other reason then just to rant without boring some random person who doesn't want to listen to me.
Birthdays there are quite a few of them at the mo, friend recently had one and seeing as I kinda forget and snail mail takes ages, I just went a got a ecard gift thing, money went to charity (kinda half being lazy and half trying to be nice to the fair folk of the world).
Anyone who knows me, knows I don't celebrate my birthday, I think only my family and 2 other people even knew when it was (not sure if I should be insulted that my supposed friends had no idea or whether they were being sweet and so respecting my wishes - I'm sticking to the later at present). Why do folk celebrate this, the only marked ages that make any sense to me are those when you can vote and when you can drive and possibly a pension, although me think that can differ for different folk (it's like saying do I think the Queen deserves a pension - not on top of her salary at present!) However age, it's something that could possibly mark wisdom however I know plenty of younger folk who are much wiser and older folk who are still stuck in childhood, or is it that age when we can say we are responisble for our own actions for those of sound mind, be these good or bad (here's hoping good prevails!)
And thanks to the wonderful teacher's strike I got id'd for buying some ibuprofen, nice (not!) my sister had a right laugh out of it though, seriously I don't look 16! Some 16 year old may look decades older then they are, I'm not one of them! ALthough apparently I'm gonna love it when I'm a biddy ... right and here was me thinking old age woohoo me and my purple brolly. I wonder if it relates to our diet etc, so if I started smoking etc, would I look my supposed age, or am I looking this way becuase I refrain from that which most of my age group do/did?
Anywho that's all for now, have a wonderful week folk :D
Friday 1 July 2011
Lomaticc - How to Luv
Okay well my random natter today ... okay well the thing thta's right ticking me off is flirting, like seriously, if the person is not your other half or you don't intend it in that manner why do people do it, does it help their self esteem or something?
Although it can be amusing, one guy gave me is number (I tried saying no several times to no success, and anyone who knows me knows how lame me attempting to be firm is), anyway I got his number and then gave it to my brother to do what he wanted with it, seeing as you shouldn't be daft enough to give a number out to some random stranger, just because folk are nice to you, that's because they're just nice or trying to be.
But what programs people to be like this, looking at the way people are where they say they will chase their heart's desire, does this mean you can excuse folk for doing stuff like streaking across a field which could be seen as harmless or in a more extreme case stalking someone, all for their own heart's desire.
Every once in a while I realise how little I seem to relate to my heart, the only time I really let go would be my music, although is this even a bad thing (I got caught singing whilst walking to the bus stop, some biddy thought I was mad ...)
Hmm anyhows folk, teh weekend begins I need to do somethiong with my leg and hopefully the jack thing I ordered has come today so sound for the Wii, woot, woot!!
Okay well my random natter today ... okay well the thing thta's right ticking me off is flirting, like seriously, if the person is not your other half or you don't intend it in that manner why do people do it, does it help their self esteem or something?
Although it can be amusing, one guy gave me is number (I tried saying no several times to no success, and anyone who knows me knows how lame me attempting to be firm is), anyway I got his number and then gave it to my brother to do what he wanted with it, seeing as you shouldn't be daft enough to give a number out to some random stranger, just because folk are nice to you, that's because they're just nice or trying to be.
But what programs people to be like this, looking at the way people are where they say they will chase their heart's desire, does this mean you can excuse folk for doing stuff like streaking across a field which could be seen as harmless or in a more extreme case stalking someone, all for their own heart's desire.
Every once in a while I realise how little I seem to relate to my heart, the only time I really let go would be my music, although is this even a bad thing (I got caught singing whilst walking to the bus stop, some biddy thought I was mad ...)
Hmm anyhows folk, teh weekend begins I need to do somethiong with my leg and hopefully the jack thing I ordered has come today so sound for the Wii, woot, woot!!
Tuesday 28 June 2011
Chipmunk - Take off
Okay well I've been having a dilemma in my mind about this whole blogger thing, to me this is a random ranting space, however some things you just want to rant about are quite personal and would I ever air them in a place where anyone has access if they truly choose.
Do I place personal problem by placing them as metaphors and replace people's names with images that come to mind or codenames ... and teh list goes on.
I know my sister thought she'd try starting up a blog, it lasted half an entry and then she said tomorrow I'll finish it, tomorrow was over a week ago and I have a feeling she's probably forgotten what her blog is even called now, I don't know else I'd have linked it at the side (quite a few interesting blogs in this place, although I tend to get tired after 2 because it starts putting them in french, my gcse french does not cover the amount of french that is in these blogs so pressing next blog tends to lose it's appeal, however some people in this place totally rock and deserve major respect for all they have seen and are most likely to see, I need to perhaps travel, I just hate travel with my fear of change and people and almost everything else (like I don't want to get frisked by a random security check or go through one of those body scan machines!)
Anyhow I've been pondering as I said and pondered hard about how much I would share, although 2 things come to mind, know thyself and emotional blackmail, if I've spoken to you about it, it'll make complete sense if it hasn't I might look like a potential ruler of teh world. Meh, anyhow I'm gonna gonna think again ... Toodles folk and enoy the beautiful rain :D
Okay well I've been having a dilemma in my mind about this whole blogger thing, to me this is a random ranting space, however some things you just want to rant about are quite personal and would I ever air them in a place where anyone has access if they truly choose.
Do I place personal problem by placing them as metaphors and replace people's names with images that come to mind or codenames ... and teh list goes on.
I know my sister thought she'd try starting up a blog, it lasted half an entry and then she said tomorrow I'll finish it, tomorrow was over a week ago and I have a feeling she's probably forgotten what her blog is even called now, I don't know else I'd have linked it at the side (quite a few interesting blogs in this place, although I tend to get tired after 2 because it starts putting them in french, my gcse french does not cover the amount of french that is in these blogs so pressing next blog tends to lose it's appeal, however some people in this place totally rock and deserve major respect for all they have seen and are most likely to see, I need to perhaps travel, I just hate travel with my fear of change and people and almost everything else (like I don't want to get frisked by a random security check or go through one of those body scan machines!)
Anyhow I've been pondering as I said and pondered hard about how much I would share, although 2 things come to mind, know thyself and emotional blackmail, if I've spoken to you about it, it'll make complete sense if it hasn't I might look like a potential ruler of teh world. Meh, anyhow I'm gonna gonna think again ... Toodles folk and enoy the beautiful rain :D
Friday 24 June 2011
Lomaticc - Slip N Fall
Okay well I've rethought my limp, I've now concluded that it's now a bad man walk, so I'm finally truly gangsta! And til I'm better I'm gonna remain ghetto ^_^
Well that was my thought for teh day, as well as the fact that I really want to hurt the fellow who sits on the same desk as me, as he keeps his phone on vibrate, on the desk, and then he keeps getting messages, like 1 every minute, it gets a tad annoying because I can feel it, and when you say anything, he ignores you or says you'll get used to it, seriously?
Meh oh well I'm going half healthy cranberry juice! Although it's in small sips cos it does not taste that great!
That's all have a merry weekend :D
Okay well I've rethought my limp, I've now concluded that it's now a bad man walk, so I'm finally truly gangsta! And til I'm better I'm gonna remain ghetto ^_^
Well that was my thought for teh day, as well as the fact that I really want to hurt the fellow who sits on the same desk as me, as he keeps his phone on vibrate, on the desk, and then he keeps getting messages, like 1 every minute, it gets a tad annoying because I can feel it, and when you say anything, he ignores you or says you'll get used to it, seriously?
Meh oh well I'm going half healthy cranberry juice! Although it's in small sips cos it does not taste that great!
That's all have a merry weekend :D
Thursday 23 June 2011
Jay Sean - Lights Off
Okay well what to say ... I guess I could contemplate folk again, people who say they will honour words, however their actions tend to not be so, for as much as an image they present they are in it to try and twist situations their own way.
I'm always puzzled by folk who seem to like folk who behave in this manner and help propel them to teh next level and then wonder and feel betrayed when these same people they helped do not treat them in the same manner.
Although they say help the oppressors by stopping them oppressing (yes these people oppress others by only allowing themselves to excel and not others in my mind) how does one go about doing this, do you behave in teh best of ways and try and see if people awaken to teh illusions cast at them, or do you face people like this head on.
And then you ponder that there are 12 main personalities types, and how we are a mix of all of them, albeit that one tends to be more dominant then the remaining 11. We could all work on ourselves and thus all problems would be sorted if everyone did that, however some folk dislike this method because of their inability to do this or they just do not wish to.
And another thing I'm thinking of is how sometimes we don't appreciate or even realise how close we become to various folk, til they leave us for even a small period of time and then you feel something inside change, or maybe it's just you becoming aware of yourself thinking why you were so dim you never realised before what it was inside and hope that your friendship is as true friendship is. So that no matter how far away or apart you may be physically you can still get on as much as ever when you meet again :D
Okay well what to say ... I guess I could contemplate folk again, people who say they will honour words, however their actions tend to not be so, for as much as an image they present they are in it to try and twist situations their own way.
I'm always puzzled by folk who seem to like folk who behave in this manner and help propel them to teh next level and then wonder and feel betrayed when these same people they helped do not treat them in the same manner.
Although they say help the oppressors by stopping them oppressing (yes these people oppress others by only allowing themselves to excel and not others in my mind) how does one go about doing this, do you behave in teh best of ways and try and see if people awaken to teh illusions cast at them, or do you face people like this head on.
And then you ponder that there are 12 main personalities types, and how we are a mix of all of them, albeit that one tends to be more dominant then the remaining 11. We could all work on ourselves and thus all problems would be sorted if everyone did that, however some folk dislike this method because of their inability to do this or they just do not wish to.
And another thing I'm thinking of is how sometimes we don't appreciate or even realise how close we become to various folk, til they leave us for even a small period of time and then you feel something inside change, or maybe it's just you becoming aware of yourself thinking why you were so dim you never realised before what it was inside and hope that your friendship is as true friendship is. So that no matter how far away or apart you may be physically you can still get on as much as ever when you meet again :D
Wednesday 22 June 2011
Lomaticc - Ex'd Up
Okay well apparently me changing my url slightly meant some people couldn't access teh page, sorry to all those folk, although can they see the apology I ponder...
Okay I'm feeling great, although forgot my coat and now I'm gonna go for lunch and I ain't made a sandwich and it's pouring ... oh well! The fun of limping in the rain, singing whilst I'm at it :D
Got my Homous wrap, was lovely and I come back in and the rain stops, woot, woot!
And now I'm on a calm high so not sure what thoughts are in my head ... so take care for now and enjoy the shortest post I think(!)
Okay well apparently me changing my url slightly meant some people couldn't access teh page, sorry to all those folk, although can they see the apology I ponder...
Okay I'm feeling great, although forgot my coat and now I'm gonna go for lunch and I ain't made a sandwich and it's pouring ... oh well! The fun of limping in the rain, singing whilst I'm at it :D
Got my Homous wrap, was lovely and I come back in and the rain stops, woot, woot!
And now I'm on a calm high so not sure what thoughts are in my head ... so take care for now and enjoy the shortest post I think(!)
Monday 20 June 2011
Lomaticc - Roses
Hello beautiful people, and we begin another lovely week with teh sun shining, the clouds still choosing between rain and well just cloud.
My weekend, well not much happened, some potential came round for I dunno who, but my mum wasn't interested as soon as him and his mum went on and on about how educated he was (he's 37 and has qualifications that most 25 that went to uni have?), and how religious he was (he doesn't even grow his beard as he doesn't think he looks nice with a beard, it would be at odd's with his bald head?) so that was kinda comical and I really didn't want to meet the fellow.
And then had a party, which rocked! Yes I limped around, however most folk couldn't tell I was limping which is sweet! and then I won on the 100m sprint! Totally tired by the end of the day and if it wasn't for teh whole support bandage would so be feeling raw, however hoping this'll mean my muscles are getting a workout and as the Wii is now outside on the projector, so absolutely no excuse not to work out now ^_^
And wit that I end this small rant for today, have a lovely day/night folk and may you all stay merry!
Hello beautiful people, and we begin another lovely week with teh sun shining, the clouds still choosing between rain and well just cloud.
My weekend, well not much happened, some potential came round for I dunno who, but my mum wasn't interested as soon as him and his mum went on and on about how educated he was (he's 37 and has qualifications that most 25 that went to uni have?), and how religious he was (he doesn't even grow his beard as he doesn't think he looks nice with a beard, it would be at odd's with his bald head?) so that was kinda comical and I really didn't want to meet the fellow.
And then had a party, which rocked! Yes I limped around, however most folk couldn't tell I was limping which is sweet! and then I won on the 100m sprint! Totally tired by the end of the day and if it wasn't for teh whole support bandage would so be feeling raw, however hoping this'll mean my muscles are getting a workout and as the Wii is now outside on the projector, so absolutely no excuse not to work out now ^_^
And wit that I end this small rant for today, have a lovely day/night folk and may you all stay merry!
Friday 17 June 2011
Junai Kaden feat. Mumzy Stranger - Aaja Mere Naal
Okay my life - hmm not that exciting, just being lazy, seeing as I don't get to do the usual walks that I enjoy, music and all that. However on a more positive note I get to spend time reading more and hence learn more and gaining muscle in the arms, which I was always thinking about although I was planning push ups and pilates rather then crutches which is so bizarre although luckily I've only gone shopping with fellow folk so they get to hold everything for me ^_^ Ideal in a sense although I have to make time for my lack of speed which really makes me appreciate when folk aren't able to keep up with the speed I used to have, even my mum was like "Argh you old biddy!" (although this was in Punjabi) the other day when we were walking from the hospital to the bus stop so I could hop into town to go work.
And finally got the party that I was attempting to plan (yes thank you to my sisters and mum seeing as I'm useless at planning as well as the fact I'm pretty much useless at the mo) not sure if I'm gonna be winning the olympics but I have a feeling I need to practice on teh Mario Kart in order to win that, Zumba is a no-no and SSX Blur is pretty a no go as I've only played the thing once and it was well hard as I'm aware that my hands moved of their own accord when playing with the accord.
Well inshallah it should all be cool and maybe it was written so I am humbled by the loss I will make ^_^ however much excited.
Wasn't sure what I felt as I got told to try dating people, I was like o_O, and I want to do this because, so their response taht I needed to know what people were like so I could find the right guy to settle with. I have no idea what impression I give to people, do I give one where apparently waiting for some prince charming or something, I'm not special or anything, it would nice to find a guy who is perfect in everyway, but does that meant I reject everyone else because I haven't found Mr Perfect for me (Miss Imperfect), it just sounds absurd.
I choose not to date because I believe that there is logic in teh faith I have and that if I did it would hurt me as well as any potential partners, by fishing I may supposedly get to know folk more, however what hurt would I and the partner suffer before we found the right partner. Are we meant to wait for that click? There are plenty of folk that are compatible with other folk, just because they haven't met each other or considered themselves in that light with one another does that mean they wouldn't be able to get on in that capacity, of course not. Why some people think you should just go fishing, I recall one potential who was divorced and although he was teh sweetest of guys he was always comparing me to his ex, we may have been compatible did I wanna live my life knowing how I did or did not compare to another person. Yes I know not all folk are like this, however you always relate people in the mind and that kind of thinking can lead down an unhappy. Why some folk think they can walk in and out of something is beyond me, they do say that fools learn from their own mistakes and the wise from others'. Do I make myself a fool?
Oh well ramble over, just feelt weird when people start questioning the whole thing (especially when it's a fellow muslim telling me to do stuff!)
Okay my life - hmm not that exciting, just being lazy, seeing as I don't get to do the usual walks that I enjoy, music and all that. However on a more positive note I get to spend time reading more and hence learn more and gaining muscle in the arms, which I was always thinking about although I was planning push ups and pilates rather then crutches which is so bizarre although luckily I've only gone shopping with fellow folk so they get to hold everything for me ^_^ Ideal in a sense although I have to make time for my lack of speed which really makes me appreciate when folk aren't able to keep up with the speed I used to have, even my mum was like "Argh you old biddy!" (although this was in Punjabi) the other day when we were walking from the hospital to the bus stop so I could hop into town to go work.
And finally got the party that I was attempting to plan (yes thank you to my sisters and mum seeing as I'm useless at planning as well as the fact I'm pretty much useless at the mo) not sure if I'm gonna be winning the olympics but I have a feeling I need to practice on teh Mario Kart in order to win that, Zumba is a no-no and SSX Blur is pretty a no go as I've only played the thing once and it was well hard as I'm aware that my hands moved of their own accord when playing with the accord.
Well inshallah it should all be cool and maybe it was written so I am humbled by the loss I will make ^_^ however much excited.
Wasn't sure what I felt as I got told to try dating people, I was like o_O, and I want to do this because, so their response taht I needed to know what people were like so I could find the right guy to settle with. I have no idea what impression I give to people, do I give one where apparently waiting for some prince charming or something, I'm not special or anything, it would nice to find a guy who is perfect in everyway, but does that meant I reject everyone else because I haven't found Mr Perfect for me (Miss Imperfect), it just sounds absurd.
I choose not to date because I believe that there is logic in teh faith I have and that if I did it would hurt me as well as any potential partners, by fishing I may supposedly get to know folk more, however what hurt would I and the partner suffer before we found the right partner. Are we meant to wait for that click? There are plenty of folk that are compatible with other folk, just because they haven't met each other or considered themselves in that light with one another does that mean they wouldn't be able to get on in that capacity, of course not. Why some people think you should just go fishing, I recall one potential who was divorced and although he was teh sweetest of guys he was always comparing me to his ex, we may have been compatible did I wanna live my life knowing how I did or did not compare to another person. Yes I know not all folk are like this, however you always relate people in the mind and that kind of thinking can lead down an unhappy. Why some folk think they can walk in and out of something is beyond me, they do say that fools learn from their own mistakes and the wise from others'. Do I make myself a fool?
Oh well ramble over, just feelt weird when people start questioning the whole thing (especially when it's a fellow muslim telling me to do stuff!)
Thursday 16 June 2011
Chipmunk - Flying High
Okay well it's raining! Woot woot, well I'm happy although a tad hungry, so wasn't sure whether I should eat my sandwich or a nutri grain thing.
Dun dun dun, well I cannot decide so I might just wait a while, although my brother did say that whenever you get a craving you should eat, so I've been having a few Softmints although I should have a drink, lucozade!!!
Hunger sated for now, I was reading something the other day which said that we should eat enough to not be hungry, but not each too much that we are full. And then another saying that the stomach should be filled with 1/3 food, 1/3 drink and 1/3 air.
So gone half an hour, thought forget it and actually went and had my sandwich, so my lunch has been left free!! Woot woot!
Not really sure what to say for today haven't really had that many thoughts, I just ponder life in general conssting of teh same thoughts that go round and around in my mind for quite some time with no real resolution and mean more stuff to me then anyone else. And then I ponder this whole blogging experience thing which then means I could potentially be exposing my inner self to the world. Although as my sister so nicely put it, most of teh folk who read this probably won't know me anyway, seeing as when I occasionally check stats I do ponder at the folk in Denmark, Hngary, etc as I don't know people from either of those places, although thanks for reading my blog if you get this far.
Toodles for now :D
Okay well it's raining! Woot woot, well I'm happy although a tad hungry, so wasn't sure whether I should eat my sandwich or a nutri grain thing.
Dun dun dun, well I cannot decide so I might just wait a while, although my brother did say that whenever you get a craving you should eat, so I've been having a few Softmints although I should have a drink, lucozade!!!
Hunger sated for now, I was reading something the other day which said that we should eat enough to not be hungry, but not each too much that we are full. And then another saying that the stomach should be filled with 1/3 food, 1/3 drink and 1/3 air.
So gone half an hour, thought forget it and actually went and had my sandwich, so my lunch has been left free!! Woot woot!
Not really sure what to say for today haven't really had that many thoughts, I just ponder life in general conssting of teh same thoughts that go round and around in my mind for quite some time with no real resolution and mean more stuff to me then anyone else. And then I ponder this whole blogging experience thing which then means I could potentially be exposing my inner self to the world. Although as my sister so nicely put it, most of teh folk who read this probably won't know me anyway, seeing as when I occasionally check stats I do ponder at the folk in Denmark, Hngary, etc as I don't know people from either of those places, although thanks for reading my blog if you get this far.
Toodles for now :D
Wednesday 15 June 2011
Sami Yusuf – Salaam
The exciting life of Tamina continues, discovered today that the internet at home was busted and had some money taken from my account, fun right? So learnt a little bit more about internet banking and am blaming the wonderful person in my household who manage to chuck a virus on the machine in the first place, so now I’m gonna do a factory reset cos I cannot be bothered trying to fix a problem which by all means appears to be sorted, but obviously isn’t, this is another point in my life where I just admit I’m a computer dunce and now the only way I know how to fix the problem of Vista, is a factory reset, as Windows obviously doesn’t care anymore and has no idea why Essentials Live and Windows Explorer 9 doesn’t run on my machine, I’m sure if I asked any other questions I’d get the same response from their tech team, regardless of however many logs I create whenever the machine mucks up!
I wonder how much more I’ll take before I just give up on Windows and actually go for another OS, seeing as I already went to Firefox from IE
What’s funny is it took the fraud team to tell me why my account was locking out time and again whereas online banking folk were pretty dim, reminds me of myself in first line, I’m not that techy I’m just doing first line and know as much as the next person, at present it’s just a matter of remembering certain things and then flogging the rest of the stuff, I do need to go read up some stuff and go back to my geeky ways and made a headstart by starting to read books again, although not of the techy sort and more religious so maybe it’s a good or not so good thing, but peace of mind means the world more then technology in my supposed humble mind.
Hmm and now I’ve forgotten what I wished to say. Okay well back to something I’ve noticed, people repeating stuff, they say if you repeat stuff it kinda changes your way of thinking, hence why people like the number 3, as advertising folks use it 3 times, people who wiosh to make an impact in their speeches tend to repeat the important point(s) 3 times, you’re getting my drift here right? Well positive mantras are all well and good, however folk don’t appear to realised how much they spread the negative, is this just because they are repeating what another person is saying, is it harder to feel good and easier to complain as we live in a society which likes to blame folk all the time. For instance my rta thing, partly my fault, partly the other guy’s is it his fault that I had a push bike and him a motor, hence why I got damaged more. Although thankful that all I got was one diddy injury which is gonna be fixed in a month (my excuse to not do the race for life!). Hmm
Oh well life is life and maybe it’s easier to share the pain, or maybe we need to develop ourselves as people so we don’t feel the need to always share the bad points in life and help create a more positive vibe about us, to embrace each and every person whomever they may be.
Words finished, I should check what I write, however it’s better to just leave it be, would that represent my thought process or something?
Toodles fair folk (be you elves or not!)
The exciting life of Tamina continues, discovered today that the internet at home was busted and had some money taken from my account, fun right? So learnt a little bit more about internet banking and am blaming the wonderful person in my household who manage to chuck a virus on the machine in the first place, so now I’m gonna do a factory reset cos I cannot be bothered trying to fix a problem which by all means appears to be sorted, but obviously isn’t, this is another point in my life where I just admit I’m a computer dunce and now the only way I know how to fix the problem of Vista, is a factory reset, as Windows obviously doesn’t care anymore and has no idea why Essentials Live and Windows Explorer 9 doesn’t run on my machine, I’m sure if I asked any other questions I’d get the same response from their tech team, regardless of however many logs I create whenever the machine mucks up!
I wonder how much more I’ll take before I just give up on Windows and actually go for another OS, seeing as I already went to Firefox from IE
What’s funny is it took the fraud team to tell me why my account was locking out time and again whereas online banking folk were pretty dim, reminds me of myself in first line, I’m not that techy I’m just doing first line and know as much as the next person, at present it’s just a matter of remembering certain things and then flogging the rest of the stuff, I do need to go read up some stuff and go back to my geeky ways and made a headstart by starting to read books again, although not of the techy sort and more religious so maybe it’s a good or not so good thing, but peace of mind means the world more then technology in my supposed humble mind.
Hmm and now I’ve forgotten what I wished to say. Okay well back to something I’ve noticed, people repeating stuff, they say if you repeat stuff it kinda changes your way of thinking, hence why people like the number 3, as advertising folks use it 3 times, people who wiosh to make an impact in their speeches tend to repeat the important point(s) 3 times, you’re getting my drift here right? Well positive mantras are all well and good, however folk don’t appear to realised how much they spread the negative, is this just because they are repeating what another person is saying, is it harder to feel good and easier to complain as we live in a society which likes to blame folk all the time. For instance my rta thing, partly my fault, partly the other guy’s is it his fault that I had a push bike and him a motor, hence why I got damaged more. Although thankful that all I got was one diddy injury which is gonna be fixed in a month (my excuse to not do the race for life!). Hmm
Oh well life is life and maybe it’s easier to share the pain, or maybe we need to develop ourselves as people so we don’t feel the need to always share the bad points in life and help create a more positive vibe about us, to embrace each and every person whomever they may be.
Words finished, I should check what I write, however it’s better to just leave it be, would that represent my thought process or something?
Toodles fair folk (be you elves or not!)
Tuesday 14 June 2011
Song - City High - What would you do
Okay well update, hmm, well my leg or knee I should say. Went back to the hospital today where they went and did x rays again, this time doing my ankle as well, as teh lady wanted to know whether my fracture had spread or not., the ankle is fine and the knee hasn't got any worse, she said it may take upto a month to heal.
However as my tibia was okay I should be able to place weight on the leg, so very happy with that, seeing as I didn't want to be hobbling on crutches for too long, I do not like being dependant on sticks, however counting myself sooo lucky for having just a small fracture and that's apparently not too bad, so huzzah and I thank God, even if the doctor was so confused as to how I'd only manged to hurt a small part of the leg, although I think the fact that I've been treating it well should help matters ^_^
Anyhow back to random discussions I've been having with folk, I've concluded there are some very weird folk in the world today, I got called geek, just for being a little (and this means a tiny amount) more techy then another person, how does this make sense, although my sister concluded that it was true cos I don't answer questions with one word, or one sentence answers I start having full depth answers, an example being when i was talking about some visual impairments, i started discussing the retina and the cones and rods, etc, to which folk were like, erm, we don't care? maybe they should have said they don't care about the depth of the answer seeing as they asked the question in the first place.
also the next most discussed topic, marriage, i wonder if this topic will ever go away, however i guess when this occurs the next question would be kids and so the cycle continues. However why is this something that folk think they have a right to believe they know what's best for me and all that, what's even more amusing is when the people themselves are unmarried, i sometimes ponder whether i should say to them "and you know all this because?" people just amuse me in the way they just believe they know me purely because they've seen on side. I remember a teacher once said about me that I'm quiet until folk get to know me and then i cannot shut up, so if people are not yet at that level with me how can they expect to know me, however if i never tell them teh truth of this statement would they assume they know me purely because i haven't told them otherwise.
I recall I was speaking to someone who stated that they were unique and I pondered, no 2 people in this world are the same both inside and out, it's just a given that folks should know. However saying this, just because everyone is unique does that mean we are all teh same is the fact that we share uniqueness, or is the point even worth telling other people, seeing as if there is a sharing quality, surely it can be left unsaid rather then something that needs highlighting? Anyhow I've seen plenty of folk like this and I usually avoid them, as they just appear to be confused rather then anything, where they start mixing and matching what they think they believe ven if these are opposing things, althopugh they won't acknowledge they share both opinions they'll just class their opinion as a new one when it's just 2 separate ones which they believe to be one. Once confronted with this it appears the defensive stance is raised and the common "You don't understand" comes out. At times I used to ponder whether my mind was open or not and whether I actually understood folk, as I know I'm a very stubborn person on the best of days, this has nothing to do with faith and more to do with me just being a stubborn person (and my enlish lit teacher hated me for this seeing as I called romeo a womaniser and stuck to that opinion, probably meant why her teaching was crap for me seeing as she went and told my mum i was an idiot and it would be a lucky day if i got a "D", which i found hilarious as I was meant to be top set, go me for being monitored by teh exam folk throughout my childhood else that would have been my only bad grade. Anywho back to the open mindness I do ponder about this as although I'm open to whatever thoughts folk may have is this because I'm open or is it the whole "not in my back yard" mentality. I've had varying opinions (not even asked for but meh) about which one it is and so I leave the matter be as sometimes it can be by calling yourself something, you lose that quality you cliam to possess.
And if you got all that, huzzah, if not, erm, you'll need to ask if it's a typo or I'm just bad at explaining stuff, take care folk o/
Okay well update, hmm, well my leg or knee I should say. Went back to the hospital today where they went and did x rays again, this time doing my ankle as well, as teh lady wanted to know whether my fracture had spread or not., the ankle is fine and the knee hasn't got any worse, she said it may take upto a month to heal.
However as my tibia was okay I should be able to place weight on the leg, so very happy with that, seeing as I didn't want to be hobbling on crutches for too long, I do not like being dependant on sticks, however counting myself sooo lucky for having just a small fracture and that's apparently not too bad, so huzzah and I thank God, even if the doctor was so confused as to how I'd only manged to hurt a small part of the leg, although I think the fact that I've been treating it well should help matters ^_^
Anyhow back to random discussions I've been having with folk, I've concluded there are some very weird folk in the world today, I got called geek, just for being a little (and this means a tiny amount) more techy then another person, how does this make sense, although my sister concluded that it was true cos I don't answer questions with one word, or one sentence answers I start having full depth answers, an example being when i was talking about some visual impairments, i started discussing the retina and the cones and rods, etc, to which folk were like, erm, we don't care? maybe they should have said they don't care about the depth of the answer seeing as they asked the question in the first place.
also the next most discussed topic, marriage, i wonder if this topic will ever go away, however i guess when this occurs the next question would be kids and so the cycle continues. However why is this something that folk think they have a right to believe they know what's best for me and all that, what's even more amusing is when the people themselves are unmarried, i sometimes ponder whether i should say to them "and you know all this because?" people just amuse me in the way they just believe they know me purely because they've seen on side. I remember a teacher once said about me that I'm quiet until folk get to know me and then i cannot shut up, so if people are not yet at that level with me how can they expect to know me, however if i never tell them teh truth of this statement would they assume they know me purely because i haven't told them otherwise.
I recall I was speaking to someone who stated that they were unique and I pondered, no 2 people in this world are the same both inside and out, it's just a given that folks should know. However saying this, just because everyone is unique does that mean we are all teh same is the fact that we share uniqueness, or is the point even worth telling other people, seeing as if there is a sharing quality, surely it can be left unsaid rather then something that needs highlighting? Anyhow I've seen plenty of folk like this and I usually avoid them, as they just appear to be confused rather then anything, where they start mixing and matching what they think they believe ven if these are opposing things, althopugh they won't acknowledge they share both opinions they'll just class their opinion as a new one when it's just 2 separate ones which they believe to be one. Once confronted with this it appears the defensive stance is raised and the common "You don't understand" comes out. At times I used to ponder whether my mind was open or not and whether I actually understood folk, as I know I'm a very stubborn person on the best of days, this has nothing to do with faith and more to do with me just being a stubborn person (and my enlish lit teacher hated me for this seeing as I called romeo a womaniser and stuck to that opinion, probably meant why her teaching was crap for me seeing as she went and told my mum i was an idiot and it would be a lucky day if i got a "D", which i found hilarious as I was meant to be top set, go me for being monitored by teh exam folk throughout my childhood else that would have been my only bad grade. Anywho back to the open mindness I do ponder about this as although I'm open to whatever thoughts folk may have is this because I'm open or is it the whole "not in my back yard" mentality. I've had varying opinions (not even asked for but meh) about which one it is and so I leave the matter be as sometimes it can be by calling yourself something, you lose that quality you cliam to possess.
And if you got all that, huzzah, if not, erm, you'll need to ask if it's a typo or I'm just bad at explaining stuff, take care folk o/
Monday 13 June 2011
Song - BSB - Masqerade
Okay I'm back at work, let's update folk on my life.
I went shopping yesterday for some trainers at JJB, as the store is closing, yes the rest of teh store thought I was weird also when I was crutching the trainers across the store to see how it felt, so I got some Zignanos and some although walking shoe, although my siblings were hampered greatly by me, so it ended up me not actually going into Asda or Iceland, cos my arms were well tired (I knew I should have been doing press ups and all that and having no upper body strength is failing me now, meh grateful for me being okay).
I had a desk change so I have some chocolate stored in my old desk but not feeling in the right mood to start crutching it across the office for a chocolate bar, maybe I should I dunno.
Although I need to pop to the loos and probably go outside for lunch just so I can get away from the desk for a bit, should I venture to it or not, and I discovered there’s a disabled button, even if most of the doors are fire safety doors which really doesn’t help in the greater scheme of things, it’s kinda fun, the manager of the floor even came and visited me, and asked me if I wanted anything, seeing as I’ve been scooting around on the floor with my wheelie chair! Although an idea of getting a motorchair was raised, it sounded pretty fun, although I know I can walk faster once my leg’s healed, so hopefully when I go see the bone specialist person tomorrow it should not be showing what they suspected as that hairline fracture thing, seeing as I have been keeping my weight off it (probably due to me falling over in various funny positions I’m sure!) Will probably just crutch it up when I take the bus tomorrow to town.
But once that’s done I’ll start the whole walking thing tomorrow, although will probably need the crutches still as it’s great for visibility and my leg seems to get tired and starts to just give out.
Okay enough analysis of my temporary position of being disabled as my sister is saying, I’m planning to be playing the Wii on Saturday (yes I could cheat however I’d rather not!)
Anywho that’s my update so far, just randomly at work, my first call of the day was a guy who hadn’t come in for 2 months and me for a week, ideal convo ^_^. And apparently I’m far too happy for a Monday, I totally believe that the weekend is for resting so people should be most energised on Monday why are other folk not the same …
Okay I'm back at work, let's update folk on my life.
I went shopping yesterday for some trainers at JJB, as the store is closing, yes the rest of teh store thought I was weird also when I was crutching the trainers across the store to see how it felt, so I got some Zignanos and some although walking shoe, although my siblings were hampered greatly by me, so it ended up me not actually going into Asda or Iceland, cos my arms were well tired (I knew I should have been doing press ups and all that and having no upper body strength is failing me now, meh grateful for me being okay).
I had a desk change so I have some chocolate stored in my old desk but not feeling in the right mood to start crutching it across the office for a chocolate bar, maybe I should I dunno.
Although I need to pop to the loos and probably go outside for lunch just so I can get away from the desk for a bit, should I venture to it or not, and I discovered there’s a disabled button, even if most of the doors are fire safety doors which really doesn’t help in the greater scheme of things, it’s kinda fun, the manager of the floor even came and visited me, and asked me if I wanted anything, seeing as I’ve been scooting around on the floor with my wheelie chair! Although an idea of getting a motorchair was raised, it sounded pretty fun, although I know I can walk faster once my leg’s healed, so hopefully when I go see the bone specialist person tomorrow it should not be showing what they suspected as that hairline fracture thing, seeing as I have been keeping my weight off it (probably due to me falling over in various funny positions I’m sure!) Will probably just crutch it up when I take the bus tomorrow to town.
But once that’s done I’ll start the whole walking thing tomorrow, although will probably need the crutches still as it’s great for visibility and my leg seems to get tired and starts to just give out.
Okay enough analysis of my temporary position of being disabled as my sister is saying, I’m planning to be playing the Wii on Saturday (yes I could cheat however I’d rather not!)
Anywho that’s my update so far, just randomly at work, my first call of the day was a guy who hadn’t come in for 2 months and me for a week, ideal convo ^_^. And apparently I’m far too happy for a Monday, I totally believe that the weekend is for resting so people should be most energised on Monday why are other folk not the same …
Saturday 11 June 2011
Song - Alicia Dixon ft Jay Sean - Every little part of me (Culture Shock Remix)
Okay well seeing as the whole sprained possible hairline fracture thing I've been living it up, ie doing sod all, so didn't feel it was worth writing an entry seeing as I'm not really doing much with my life except for being called disabled by my ever loving sister.
Big thank you to all those folks who sent me messages/calls, etc on facebook, they totally cheered my days up, especially when folk did it from from work, thank you guys, I know I love being anti-social, but takes me not being able to walk to truly appreciate the few I've made ^_^.
Anyhow my theme for today, went to a talk a little while back which had Lauren Booth, and thought of something I heard whilst she was speaking aout her conversion to Islam, and totally agreed with it, not just for helping us in avoiding the wrong within any specific faith but for just helping us us people in anything we set out to do. Anyhow what she said was teh best piece of advice she had been given was: "Avoid the listers" and everyone should know what this carries, as I certainity know people who have done this thoughout my whole entire life, be it for my faith, clothing, education, career, you name it you can recall the folk. The ever wise who offer countless words of what they entail to be wisdom, or in consequence can cause you to ignore other folk purely because of the fact that all they can do is make you feel not worthy or that you have to work harder to please them.
And I'm sure every person has either ignored someone important or had some blow aginst them due to these people, who don't stop to ever look at themselves or even wonder at what consequences they may have. Sure if I can't sing I'm glad my mum told me to stick to studying, I'm not gonna disillusion myself and I know that even if I could sing I have an alternative route if not a capable mindset to help me look after myself should I ever achieve fame and fortune via singing (I cannot sing, I'm okay with belting along with lyrics in the car or what not however I have no dreams to ever have considered this :D). However a lister may have tried to tell me that I'm doing it wrong (and when a 5 year old is doing it just to sing along to teh bollywood tune it's kinda annoying) and not offering any constructive criticism it not only feeds negativity into any bond they may share but can hinder people's self esteem, and it makes me angry when I see folk do this to others. Seeing as what right do we as humans have to tell someone that they don't have something, and feel extremely sad for knowing that I have most likely been at fault as well, what right did I have to tell someone that. Many what if scenarios can arise, from which I can only hope that the people affected forgive me, I learn from the mistakes and also I can help others from not doing the same thing. For it is only united that we can help one another in becoming better societies, not just focussed on tackling crime and other things, but in bettering ourselves as people, allowing people to reach the heights that people can achieve and thus carrying ourselves into a brighter future as humans where the weakest are protected and not bullied into submission.
Toodles for now folks, I'm off to read, the only thing that's really available to me, which is a good thing in a way!
Okay well seeing as the whole sprained possible hairline fracture thing I've been living it up, ie doing sod all, so didn't feel it was worth writing an entry seeing as I'm not really doing much with my life except for being called disabled by my ever loving sister.
Big thank you to all those folks who sent me messages/calls, etc on facebook, they totally cheered my days up, especially when folk did it from from work, thank you guys, I know I love being anti-social, but takes me not being able to walk to truly appreciate the few I've made ^_^.
Anyhow my theme for today, went to a talk a little while back which had Lauren Booth, and thought of something I heard whilst she was speaking aout her conversion to Islam, and totally agreed with it, not just for helping us in avoiding the wrong within any specific faith but for just helping us us people in anything we set out to do. Anyhow what she said was teh best piece of advice she had been given was: "Avoid the listers" and everyone should know what this carries, as I certainity know people who have done this thoughout my whole entire life, be it for my faith, clothing, education, career, you name it you can recall the folk. The ever wise who offer countless words of what they entail to be wisdom, or in consequence can cause you to ignore other folk purely because of the fact that all they can do is make you feel not worthy or that you have to work harder to please them.
And I'm sure every person has either ignored someone important or had some blow aginst them due to these people, who don't stop to ever look at themselves or even wonder at what consequences they may have. Sure if I can't sing I'm glad my mum told me to stick to studying, I'm not gonna disillusion myself and I know that even if I could sing I have an alternative route if not a capable mindset to help me look after myself should I ever achieve fame and fortune via singing (I cannot sing, I'm okay with belting along with lyrics in the car or what not however I have no dreams to ever have considered this :D). However a lister may have tried to tell me that I'm doing it wrong (and when a 5 year old is doing it just to sing along to teh bollywood tune it's kinda annoying) and not offering any constructive criticism it not only feeds negativity into any bond they may share but can hinder people's self esteem, and it makes me angry when I see folk do this to others. Seeing as what right do we as humans have to tell someone that they don't have something, and feel extremely sad for knowing that I have most likely been at fault as well, what right did I have to tell someone that. Many what if scenarios can arise, from which I can only hope that the people affected forgive me, I learn from the mistakes and also I can help others from not doing the same thing. For it is only united that we can help one another in becoming better societies, not just focussed on tackling crime and other things, but in bettering ourselves as people, allowing people to reach the heights that people can achieve and thus carrying ourselves into a brighter future as humans where the weakest are protected and not bullied into submission.
Toodles for now folks, I'm off to read, the only thing that's really available to me, which is a good thing in a way!
Tuesday 7 June 2011
Song - Breaking Benjamins - So Cold
Okay well more about Southall I got told, hmm, the place is like a trees with branches that are the little shops within shops, if that makes any snse and cos of the street merchants you smell the sweetcorn, mangoes, pakoras, samosas and various other delights and feel hungry and appreciate the desi aspect of your life, because it's not just an inherent part of my heritage but part of who I will be in the future also, be this for my own personal future or for friends, kids, etc.
I'm not really sure whether a moment-by-moment recollection was required, although you'd most likely find that boring.
Anyway I had fun today, I totally killed my bike, well the back tyre anyhow, the back got clipped by a motocyclist and so the wheel is now all bent, I have no idea what i'm gonna do with it, however that completely rules out trying for the race for life thing unless i go with crutches which would be hilarious although no upper body strength so might be a joy to watch, everything just bizarre.
It just making me not take for granted the stuff I usually do, like when I want a drink and I'm upstairs I usually just used to run for it, now I have to navigate my way downstairs and be tired by the time i get down (my lack of upper body strength being the key factor here) or relying on someone else, which I really hate to do, although at present that's what family is for so I guess I'm grateful for it more then ever, I now I could survive on my own, but having someone there just helps makes life just that little bit sweeter. Although it does help that I'm just wearing jeans everywhere or carrying a bag due to the crutches (as I might have some hairline fracture or something - doctor wasn't sure but no one else noticed it til he made a point of it, so I wasn't sure whether to worry or not)
But anyhow came home doing regular gentle exercises - ie just bending my knee (well trying) and raising it just to keep it mobile and not become stiff apparently, as there's gonna be quite some bruising and if it become stiff it won't help matters...
Anyhows that's my daily update I'm gonna catch up on some movie watching or something and I really should take those painkillers the pain is coming back. Take care of yourselves folks and never take anything for granted, we can always be in much worse situations and though we can only begin to imagine them we need to be aware and so know that we are truly blessed.
Toodles o/
Okay well more about Southall I got told, hmm, the place is like a trees with branches that are the little shops within shops, if that makes any snse and cos of the street merchants you smell the sweetcorn, mangoes, pakoras, samosas and various other delights and feel hungry and appreciate the desi aspect of your life, because it's not just an inherent part of my heritage but part of who I will be in the future also, be this for my own personal future or for friends, kids, etc.
I'm not really sure whether a moment-by-moment recollection was required, although you'd most likely find that boring.
Anyway I had fun today, I totally killed my bike, well the back tyre anyhow, the back got clipped by a motocyclist and so the wheel is now all bent, I have no idea what i'm gonna do with it, however that completely rules out trying for the race for life thing unless i go with crutches which would be hilarious although no upper body strength so might be a joy to watch, everything just bizarre.
It just making me not take for granted the stuff I usually do, like when I want a drink and I'm upstairs I usually just used to run for it, now I have to navigate my way downstairs and be tired by the time i get down (my lack of upper body strength being the key factor here) or relying on someone else, which I really hate to do, although at present that's what family is for so I guess I'm grateful for it more then ever, I now I could survive on my own, but having someone there just helps makes life just that little bit sweeter. Although it does help that I'm just wearing jeans everywhere or carrying a bag due to the crutches (as I might have some hairline fracture or something - doctor wasn't sure but no one else noticed it til he made a point of it, so I wasn't sure whether to worry or not)
But anyhow came home doing regular gentle exercises - ie just bending my knee (well trying) and raising it just to keep it mobile and not become stiff apparently, as there's gonna be quite some bruising and if it become stiff it won't help matters...
Anyhows that's my daily update I'm gonna catch up on some movie watching or something and I really should take those painkillers the pain is coming back. Take care of yourselves folks and never take anything for granted, we can always be in much worse situations and though we can only begin to imagine them we need to be aware and so know that we are truly blessed.
Toodles o/
Monday 6 June 2011
Song - Dr Zeus - Aag ka Duriya
Okay well occasionally I look at the blog and ponder at who actually reads it, and because the comments are rare (ie I've only ever got one) I have no idea whether it's just a stray traveller or someone who likes to ponder at my thoughts/laugh or whatever else I'm apparently great for, hmm
Oh well back to life, well I had a bit of a busy/lazy weekend, Saturday went to town to post something, then came back home to join the family trip to Southall (do not ask me why the place only appears to open after 12 o'clock, weird, anyhow got a nice new suit which is cool, and loved teh fact it had long sleeves (I don't know why it's so hard to find full sleeves nowadays!) and was black and cream, to which a friend told me it sounded like I was talking about ice cream. And then we realised we had another thing in common, anything can relate to food! I recall a couple of years back when me and family were mixing some cement and I was in charge of the mixer and throwing in the various parts of sand and cement I did look at it and thought milkshake I want some, although I had absolutely no food at the time, so it could be counted as a fail, I'm not sure.
Anywho back to Saturday, I saw mango, telephone card, kulfi, sweetcorn and various other road side stalls which I always find seems to signify Southall, these guys look like they don't even want to be there half the time, but without these uncles (although I did see one kid and one lady) what so signify Southall, as well Southall. Anyhow having got the suit and randomly looking at stalls, attempting to learn the art of haggling from my mother (I got absolutely no discount on some attar - but it was already a good price so who am I to complain!). I wonder if I could get my mum to audition for the Apprentice, anyone who knows her knows how awesome she is and she'd talk down to Alan Sugar should he even try to cuss her, I once remember asking her and she was like I'd walk out before it starts and just tell him he's fired!
Okay back to Saturday, anyhow went home, eating some ice cream in the car, was so woot woot, my sister had some kulfi - not a fan of it tbh. Got back home then got ready to go out to some charity dinner and dance, and the dj rocked, was very good at mixing it up and all that, the gujarati food was great and everything was vegeterian so totally ideal! Although I didn't dance even though I wanted to, seeing as it was a mixed gathering and all that :(. But met some family friends, who knew me as a tike, and apparently I was right trouble, and then all eth stories came back to mind, so I did my cheeky smile (what else could I do?)
Sunday consisted of well sleep and some dossing, a lil bit of housework, cooking (well trying but it completely mucked up!) oh well, edible for me so now I have my dinner for tonight, raw food, woot, woot?
Anyhows that's all for now folks and be sure to enjoy your day/night.
Toodles o/
Okay well occasionally I look at the blog and ponder at who actually reads it, and because the comments are rare (ie I've only ever got one) I have no idea whether it's just a stray traveller or someone who likes to ponder at my thoughts/laugh or whatever else I'm apparently great for, hmm
Oh well back to life, well I had a bit of a busy/lazy weekend, Saturday went to town to post something, then came back home to join the family trip to Southall (do not ask me why the place only appears to open after 12 o'clock, weird, anyhow got a nice new suit which is cool, and loved teh fact it had long sleeves (I don't know why it's so hard to find full sleeves nowadays!) and was black and cream, to which a friend told me it sounded like I was talking about ice cream. And then we realised we had another thing in common, anything can relate to food! I recall a couple of years back when me and family were mixing some cement and I was in charge of the mixer and throwing in the various parts of sand and cement I did look at it and thought milkshake I want some, although I had absolutely no food at the time, so it could be counted as a fail, I'm not sure.
Anywho back to Saturday, I saw mango, telephone card, kulfi, sweetcorn and various other road side stalls which I always find seems to signify Southall, these guys look like they don't even want to be there half the time, but without these uncles (although I did see one kid and one lady) what so signify Southall, as well Southall. Anyhow having got the suit and randomly looking at stalls, attempting to learn the art of haggling from my mother (I got absolutely no discount on some attar - but it was already a good price so who am I to complain!). I wonder if I could get my mum to audition for the Apprentice, anyone who knows her knows how awesome she is and she'd talk down to Alan Sugar should he even try to cuss her, I once remember asking her and she was like I'd walk out before it starts and just tell him he's fired!
Okay back to Saturday, anyhow went home, eating some ice cream in the car, was so woot woot, my sister had some kulfi - not a fan of it tbh. Got back home then got ready to go out to some charity dinner and dance, and the dj rocked, was very good at mixing it up and all that, the gujarati food was great and everything was vegeterian so totally ideal! Although I didn't dance even though I wanted to, seeing as it was a mixed gathering and all that :(. But met some family friends, who knew me as a tike, and apparently I was right trouble, and then all eth stories came back to mind, so I did my cheeky smile (what else could I do?)
Sunday consisted of well sleep and some dossing, a lil bit of housework, cooking (well trying but it completely mucked up!) oh well, edible for me so now I have my dinner for tonight, raw food, woot, woot?
Anyhows that's all for now folks and be sure to enjoy your day/night.
Toodles o/
Friday 3 June 2011
Breaking Benjamins - So Cold
Oh well let's see how has my day gone, I recall the junk I had for breakfast, although lunch and dinner made up for it.
My mum wants to go Southall tomorrow so that should be fun, well probably not but it's an option it would be cool, probably will be cool as shopping trips with mum rock and i'll probably be have tales to tell.
Until then take care ...
Oh well let's see how has my day gone, I recall the junk I had for breakfast, although lunch and dinner made up for it.
My mum wants to go Southall tomorrow so that should be fun, well probably not but it's an option it would be cool, probably will be cool as shopping trips with mum rock and i'll probably be have tales to tell.
Until then take care ...
Thursday 2 June 2011
Song - Bravestarr Theme Song
Yes I was singing along to a cartoon theme song, Bucky O'Hare was going through my hear as well but you need more then 1 person to get the full impact of that one!
Hmm what to say. Okay well yesterday I was distracted so I'll finish part of that, okay well I was looking after some 5 yr old yesterday. I know nothing of kids, after half an hour I resorted to the Wii, and was the #1 supporter for a kid that had no idea how the Wii Kart was meant to work, and felt sooo bad, I always thought I'm gonna encourage geekism and make kids do board games and everything so that they don't have to resort to the box of light.
What other suggestions would there be for a 5yr old, cos I did not understand a word this kid said, and what made it more difficult was that he was switching between punjabi and english, however as I couldn't understand half the words I was completely lost. However it was a learning experience so felt that although I felt completely out of my depth I hopefully learnt something in order to be better on the next encounter with a young un!
Completely lost my train of thought, oh well toodles for now!
Yes I was singing along to a cartoon theme song, Bucky O'Hare was going through my hear as well but you need more then 1 person to get the full impact of that one!
Hmm what to say. Okay well yesterday I was distracted so I'll finish part of that, okay well I was looking after some 5 yr old yesterday. I know nothing of kids, after half an hour I resorted to the Wii, and was the #1 supporter for a kid that had no idea how the Wii Kart was meant to work, and felt sooo bad, I always thought I'm gonna encourage geekism and make kids do board games and everything so that they don't have to resort to the box of light.
What other suggestions would there be for a 5yr old, cos I did not understand a word this kid said, and what made it more difficult was that he was switching between punjabi and english, however as I couldn't understand half the words I was completely lost. However it was a learning experience so felt that although I felt completely out of my depth I hopefully learnt something in order to be better on the next encounter with a young un!
Completely lost my train of thought, oh well toodles for now!
Wednesday 1 June 2011
Song - Red - Hide
What to say about today, my manager asked me what I was doing seeing as I was apparently given a weekly task, however I wasn't told what it entailed, so was lols! But I got caught up and was well chuffed with myself by the end of it! Felt like a proper day at work.
And I need to get started on that party that I was planning from time back, I just need to get the idea of the ground at some point...
Anyhow I'm watching the Apprentice so completely distracted, take care fair folk and may you rest well :D
What to say about today, my manager asked me what I was doing seeing as I was apparently given a weekly task, however I wasn't told what it entailed, so was lols! But I got caught up and was well chuffed with myself by the end of it! Felt like a proper day at work.
And I need to get started on that party that I was planning from time back, I just need to get the idea of the ground at some point...
Anyhow I'm watching the Apprentice so completely distracted, take care fair folk and may you rest well :D
Tuesday 31 May 2011
Song - Within Temptation - Frozen
Okay well no drama on the weekend, just went to town brought some multivitamins (yeah me - somehow getting others to take tablets that benefit, this means not 1 person but 2 other people take them also and then the supply dwindles pretty quickly ... lol) and then finished clearing and setting the back room to rights, probably have to sort through all my books now to say what is meant to be and what isn't.
Anyhow back to today, well my sister got mugged, just brought me up short I've always been a paranoid freak so I tend to avoid any place which looks even the slightest bit out of character. But do you wonder whether it was partly the victim's fault for being in the wrong place at the wrong time or just the criminal's fault.
Yes you should be safe anywhere you go on this Earth and I do not think anyone should be punished in any sort of fashion should they have done nothing wrong, however should someone walk down an alley known to be a bad place and think the same thing and be suprised when anything out of the ordinary happens, just reminds me of the whole Slut march, I totally agree no matter what situation you are in life, no one and I mean no-one deserves to be punished in any way shape or form. However the criminals themselves may be victims and so thus began the vicious cycle which led them to crime, or is this just me and my nice side. Apparently I can see the good in people, I don't think this is the case, as I view myself as a pessimist. However just because I see the world in a harsh light doesn't mean that I have the right to condemn anyone and thus I see them (or attempt to see them) as innocent until proven guilty, and even then they may have an excuse to be the way they are. Be this upbringing, education, social circles, etc. No 2 people are alike and so how can I determine or judge people in something I will never truly comprehend ...
Anyhow my sister wants to go to bed and hates this keyboard (I need to get a new desktop most likely) but for the while adieu people and have a wonderful evening, night, morning etc. basically whenever you read this.
Toodles fair folk o/
Okay well no drama on the weekend, just went to town brought some multivitamins (yeah me - somehow getting others to take tablets that benefit, this means not 1 person but 2 other people take them also and then the supply dwindles pretty quickly ... lol) and then finished clearing and setting the back room to rights, probably have to sort through all my books now to say what is meant to be and what isn't.
Anyhow back to today, well my sister got mugged, just brought me up short I've always been a paranoid freak so I tend to avoid any place which looks even the slightest bit out of character. But do you wonder whether it was partly the victim's fault for being in the wrong place at the wrong time or just the criminal's fault.
Yes you should be safe anywhere you go on this Earth and I do not think anyone should be punished in any sort of fashion should they have done nothing wrong, however should someone walk down an alley known to be a bad place and think the same thing and be suprised when anything out of the ordinary happens, just reminds me of the whole Slut march, I totally agree no matter what situation you are in life, no one and I mean no-one deserves to be punished in any way shape or form. However the criminals themselves may be victims and so thus began the vicious cycle which led them to crime, or is this just me and my nice side. Apparently I can see the good in people, I don't think this is the case, as I view myself as a pessimist. However just because I see the world in a harsh light doesn't mean that I have the right to condemn anyone and thus I see them (or attempt to see them) as innocent until proven guilty, and even then they may have an excuse to be the way they are. Be this upbringing, education, social circles, etc. No 2 people are alike and so how can I determine or judge people in something I will never truly comprehend ...
Anyhow my sister wants to go to bed and hates this keyboard (I need to get a new desktop most likely) but for the while adieu people and have a wonderful evening, night, morning etc. basically whenever you read this.
Toodles fair folk o/
Friday 27 May 2011
Song - Metz and Trix - Dil Moulia
Okay well what to say, it's going to be a bank holiday weekend and it's gonna rain (no idea whether I did the whole blog about how great the rain is or not, so I'll just pretend I did). I've been told it's good I'm chatty and a geek/nerd, I felt kinda cool with that, although I'm well aware I'm leagues aware from even being a basic nerd.
ALthough I did go ooh and aah over a small plug (my fasination with electronics) should I not marvel at the tiny transformers nowadays which are just so small and efficient, just makes me ponder, we cannot even see nanotechnology, well me with my human sight, so technology is amazing and we're moving so fast, fair play slower then before, but we are still moving forward into a time where even though the machine that can rival the human brain hasn't been made, we are having to make huge strides to keep up with it.
But in the meantime I'll go back to question and listen to some legal specialist talking about some legal jargon.
Toodles folks and enjoy the rain!
Okay well what to say, it's going to be a bank holiday weekend and it's gonna rain (no idea whether I did the whole blog about how great the rain is or not, so I'll just pretend I did). I've been told it's good I'm chatty and a geek/nerd, I felt kinda cool with that, although I'm well aware I'm leagues aware from even being a basic nerd.
ALthough I did go ooh and aah over a small plug (my fasination with electronics) should I not marvel at the tiny transformers nowadays which are just so small and efficient, just makes me ponder, we cannot even see nanotechnology, well me with my human sight, so technology is amazing and we're moving so fast, fair play slower then before, but we are still moving forward into a time where even though the machine that can rival the human brain hasn't been made, we are having to make huge strides to keep up with it.
But in the meantime I'll go back to question and listen to some legal specialist talking about some legal jargon.
Toodles folks and enjoy the rain!
Thursday 26 May 2011
Song - Fearless ft Sonna Rele - Everywhere and Nowhere
Okay what to talk about today, I was reading the news, as you do, and in the education section I saw a part that said a study was done saying that lost cost ways to improve childrens' learning was by giving them constructive praise and having the kids teach one another, I'm a fan of both of them, but I just pondered, what in the world has happened to society today that people don't even think about these things, and it went on to suggest stuff like smaller class sizes are more expensive ... I was thinking duh ...
I just ponder at the common sense, or lack therof, that people appear to have. Seeing as we only apparently recall 20% of the information we read about and a bit more if we write/copy information as our brain is having to process a bit more with the whole exercise of copying. However this is significantly improved by teaching another and this having kids mentor one another, seeing that the class is all working together to get to the same goal, helps the kids with their own interpersonal skills as well as helping the teacher. I remember I used to help a friend with maths, whilst she attempted to help me with English (attempt being the key word) however i have no doubt that by me teaching her what the class was doing helped me enormously, especially nowadays where people have forgotten stuff like timetables and other basic stuff. I feel blessed but sad that as a society we don't keep these things in our minds they don't just help us with our everyday lives with stuff like shopping, they help shape the way our minds work and recalling the basics is what allows us to hone our skills in whatever path you wish to take, but that's just my stubborn opinion on the matter.
And the fact it takes a study to tell folk this is even more depressing ...
And now I depart wondering what I'm going to eat for my dinner ...
Toodles fair folk and be merry :D
Okay what to talk about today, I was reading the news, as you do, and in the education section I saw a part that said a study was done saying that lost cost ways to improve childrens' learning was by giving them constructive praise and having the kids teach one another, I'm a fan of both of them, but I just pondered, what in the world has happened to society today that people don't even think about these things, and it went on to suggest stuff like smaller class sizes are more expensive ... I was thinking duh ...
I just ponder at the common sense, or lack therof, that people appear to have. Seeing as we only apparently recall 20% of the information we read about and a bit more if we write/copy information as our brain is having to process a bit more with the whole exercise of copying. However this is significantly improved by teaching another and this having kids mentor one another, seeing that the class is all working together to get to the same goal, helps the kids with their own interpersonal skills as well as helping the teacher. I remember I used to help a friend with maths, whilst she attempted to help me with English (attempt being the key word) however i have no doubt that by me teaching her what the class was doing helped me enormously, especially nowadays where people have forgotten stuff like timetables and other basic stuff. I feel blessed but sad that as a society we don't keep these things in our minds they don't just help us with our everyday lives with stuff like shopping, they help shape the way our minds work and recalling the basics is what allows us to hone our skills in whatever path you wish to take, but that's just my stubborn opinion on the matter.
And the fact it takes a study to tell folk this is even more depressing ...
And now I depart wondering what I'm going to eat for my dinner ...
Toodles fair folk and be merry :D
Wednesday 25 May 2011
Song - Metz & Trix - Kerre Velle
Okay well what to say, not really in a talking mood today, my sister ponders why I have such a monotone voice, and I'm not sure how it came about. I recall a point in time when I came back for my first year at uni and my manager told me that I had become harder and so my voice was more assertive or something. Maybe that'd be why. WHereas much of the time I'm a pretty fast speaker to some and have a voice that may appear to be of a higher tone then others when I'm being serious it's back to the whole monotone.
And now I'm not even watching the apprentice, it has become that drab that it's just a matter of watching supposed intelligent people become whackoes and selfish pigs. Hmm okay well now I'm going weird, is it too late to go eat some chocolate, I have a boost bar I really wanted to eat ...
Why do we watch people when we see them at their worst do we watch it in order to feel better about ourselves, or in order to learn so that we do not make the same mistakes, not just to better ourselves but to help humanity as well ...
Take care for the moment! (I still ponder at who would even read this blog)
Okay well what to say, not really in a talking mood today, my sister ponders why I have such a monotone voice, and I'm not sure how it came about. I recall a point in time when I came back for my first year at uni and my manager told me that I had become harder and so my voice was more assertive or something. Maybe that'd be why. WHereas much of the time I'm a pretty fast speaker to some and have a voice that may appear to be of a higher tone then others when I'm being serious it's back to the whole monotone.
And now I'm not even watching the apprentice, it has become that drab that it's just a matter of watching supposed intelligent people become whackoes and selfish pigs. Hmm okay well now I'm going weird, is it too late to go eat some chocolate, I have a boost bar I really wanted to eat ...
Why do we watch people when we see them at their worst do we watch it in order to feel better about ourselves, or in order to learn so that we do not make the same mistakes, not just to better ourselves but to help humanity as well ...
Take care for the moment! (I still ponder at who would even read this blog)
Tuesday 24 May 2011
Song – Billu Barber – Love Mera
Well I didn’t write any blog on the weekend, I’m not sorry my wrists were hurting like nobody’s business so I needed to rest them. I spent the whole weekend painting so I think I might have got RSI or something, so I had to keep shifting my grip on the brush to try and ease this. Mornings were okay as I tended to zone out whilst listening to random music (felt a tad sorry for the neighbours having to listen to me attempting to sing) and then in the afternoon had my brother working alongside me (he has a social life – but he needs it seeing as he is the only guy, else he might become too feminine I’m sure).
And so the time was spent talking about random stuff to the wonderful world of modern day politics to old school day memories, I found out my brother used to go to school with a boy who thought he was a vampire, which would have been all good if it wasn’t for the fact that my brother then proceeded to make a joke about it as the guy still ate normal food and all that, so the boy retaliated by proceeding to bite my brother with his normal human teeth.
But anyhow a boring weekend with intervals of fun in the evening, got myself the Zumba game, so proceeded to whack every table in the vicinity of the kitchen/dining room, so both my arms and legs hurt, fun, fun, fun!
And my mum went made and thought she’d buy a 10l tub of chocolate icecream, I was like O_O, but you have to wait ages for it to soften up in order to scoop it, else it’s like rock solid, so really putting me off eating the stuff.
Trying to think off something philosophical but all I can think about at present is chocolate and how I could eat my Double Decker! So toodles folks I’m off to do work :D
Well I didn’t write any blog on the weekend, I’m not sorry my wrists were hurting like nobody’s business so I needed to rest them. I spent the whole weekend painting so I think I might have got RSI or something, so I had to keep shifting my grip on the brush to try and ease this. Mornings were okay as I tended to zone out whilst listening to random music (felt a tad sorry for the neighbours having to listen to me attempting to sing) and then in the afternoon had my brother working alongside me (he has a social life – but he needs it seeing as he is the only guy, else he might become too feminine I’m sure).
And so the time was spent talking about random stuff to the wonderful world of modern day politics to old school day memories, I found out my brother used to go to school with a boy who thought he was a vampire, which would have been all good if it wasn’t for the fact that my brother then proceeded to make a joke about it as the guy still ate normal food and all that, so the boy retaliated by proceeding to bite my brother with his normal human teeth.
But anyhow a boring weekend with intervals of fun in the evening, got myself the Zumba game, so proceeded to whack every table in the vicinity of the kitchen/dining room, so both my arms and legs hurt, fun, fun, fun!
And my mum went made and thought she’d buy a 10l tub of chocolate icecream, I was like O_O, but you have to wait ages for it to soften up in order to scoop it, else it’s like rock solid, so really putting me off eating the stuff.
Trying to think off something philosophical but all I can think about at present is chocolate and how I could eat my Double Decker! So toodles folks I’m off to do work :D
Friday 20 May 2011
Song - Blue - I Can
Well I've been in a thinking mode, well on and off at random intervals, thinking about ultimatums and whether it's acceptable for folk to give them to others or not.
For me I find the whole thing a tad weird, ultimatums are a basis of trust and forcing people to choose. And my two keys things are trust and honesty, if I find I don't trust you or deem you to be honest to me, I will not be friends with you, I may make politie conversation but not as a friend but an acquaintance. Everything else is secondly, be this belief, looks, etc. Although maybe it's my perception of the matter, how do I know what total trust and honesty are, I myself know I'm not completely honest, I'll tailor the truth accordingly to the audience, is that truth or is it a truth with omissions which can be interpreted in more then one way, and thus become a lie? So do people look for those who are simliar to them or similar to the ideal they look for?
Back to topic though if you decide to give people this wonderful option (the ultimatum), what does that say about you inside, are you just doing it to confirm your own opinion on the matter or are you just stating this so that you are, in essence, watching the person, waiting for them to disappoint you further along the line. I asked various folk and most wouldn't give an ultimatum. However as my wonderful sister said to me the other day, I'm very selective in who I ask questions, be it they share my opinions or not, the people I ask tend to be thinkers also and so I would receive responses that come from people having already spent time thinking about it, or they will. Rather then the masses who tend to make decisions regardless of what information is available on the matter.
The seeds of doubt are sown and there's no way to remove the damage that may occur. But what are the other options, I for one tend to be one of those people who would walk away from the situation, be this work, social, personal, etc. Which scar is greater, that for which you make a mistake or that for which you never explored and thus never knew what teh answer would have been. Does this cause us to start looking at the what if's and thus a vicious cycle, believeing in your mind that if something had happened it would have been better somehow.
The past should teach us our mistakes and the present help make us wiser for the future. But an ideal world is not what we live in and humankind, although amazing can be disappointing ceatures ...
Meh I need some sugar double decker or a boost bar? Toodles folks o/
Well I've been in a thinking mode, well on and off at random intervals, thinking about ultimatums and whether it's acceptable for folk to give them to others or not.
For me I find the whole thing a tad weird, ultimatums are a basis of trust and forcing people to choose. And my two keys things are trust and honesty, if I find I don't trust you or deem you to be honest to me, I will not be friends with you, I may make politie conversation but not as a friend but an acquaintance. Everything else is secondly, be this belief, looks, etc. Although maybe it's my perception of the matter, how do I know what total trust and honesty are, I myself know I'm not completely honest, I'll tailor the truth accordingly to the audience, is that truth or is it a truth with omissions which can be interpreted in more then one way, and thus become a lie? So do people look for those who are simliar to them or similar to the ideal they look for?
Back to topic though if you decide to give people this wonderful option (the ultimatum), what does that say about you inside, are you just doing it to confirm your own opinion on the matter or are you just stating this so that you are, in essence, watching the person, waiting for them to disappoint you further along the line. I asked various folk and most wouldn't give an ultimatum. However as my wonderful sister said to me the other day, I'm very selective in who I ask questions, be it they share my opinions or not, the people I ask tend to be thinkers also and so I would receive responses that come from people having already spent time thinking about it, or they will. Rather then the masses who tend to make decisions regardless of what information is available on the matter.
The seeds of doubt are sown and there's no way to remove the damage that may occur. But what are the other options, I for one tend to be one of those people who would walk away from the situation, be this work, social, personal, etc. Which scar is greater, that for which you make a mistake or that for which you never explored and thus never knew what teh answer would have been. Does this cause us to start looking at the what if's and thus a vicious cycle, believeing in your mind that if something had happened it would have been better somehow.
The past should teach us our mistakes and the present help make us wiser for the future. But an ideal world is not what we live in and humankind, although amazing can be disappointing ceatures ...
Meh I need some sugar double decker or a boost bar? Toodles folks o/
Thursday 19 May 2011
Humanity ...
Song - Fort Minor - Remember the name
Well I find went and got the incentive to start organising a party, putting both sisters as co party organiser, because I'd rather not do everything, like making food and what not ^_^
Finally discovered the group functionality and added various folks, dunno if that's everyone but I'm not the greatest of checklists for inviting folk and have delegated that task to my sister (although she's not yet aware of this fact)
However the board already has discussions which is pretty cool, seeing as I wasn't sure what would happen, but the board actually has a discussion and as it's a closed group it's free game for people in teh group to post whatever suggestions they have, Zumba was cool, water fight not so sure unless I'm in charge of the hose pipe, else I doubt I want any part to play in it.
I also made a decision which was a good step as it leads me a step into the right direction although I still need to think more and use the old noggin to try and rehash my communication skills although I'm half dreading it, it's something that will need to be addressed, so tally ho!
Should I try a philosophical subject? I dunno, sometimes I wonder whether I try and sound intelligent, is this something that we do as humans, try and do something in order to appear like we have a use in the world besides using up the world's resources for our ends ...
Well I find went and got the incentive to start organising a party, putting both sisters as co party organiser, because I'd rather not do everything, like making food and what not ^_^
Finally discovered the group functionality and added various folks, dunno if that's everyone but I'm not the greatest of checklists for inviting folk and have delegated that task to my sister (although she's not yet aware of this fact)
However the board already has discussions which is pretty cool, seeing as I wasn't sure what would happen, but the board actually has a discussion and as it's a closed group it's free game for people in teh group to post whatever suggestions they have, Zumba was cool, water fight not so sure unless I'm in charge of the hose pipe, else I doubt I want any part to play in it.
I also made a decision which was a good step as it leads me a step into the right direction although I still need to think more and use the old noggin to try and rehash my communication skills although I'm half dreading it, it's something that will need to be addressed, so tally ho!
Should I try a philosophical subject? I dunno, sometimes I wonder whether I try and sound intelligent, is this something that we do as humans, try and do something in order to appear like we have a use in the world besides using up the world's resources for our ends ...
Wednesday 18 May 2011
Memories ...
Song - Nicole Something (Yes I cannot spell her surname and too lazy to go look it up) - Whatever her new song is called
As you might be able to tell, I have a song in my mind that refuses to move, it's not something I partically enjoy but meh, I'll blame some random folk with the fact ...
Anyhow I totally got played by my own mother, she left me traumatised that I killed a pigeon, it figures that I didn't kill it, as it was flying off merrily into the distance and she saw it looked okay, so then I pondered is it better to be a dead pigeon or a disabled one, seeing as they don't have a jcp in order to go claim unemployment and all that.
Also had a fantastic time accidentally putting a cheque for my mum into my account, so had to wait quite a while in order to have them take it out of the machine so that they could give it back to me, just fustrated at myself because I keep forgetting to get the account details from my mum in order for me to go into the bank and go deposit it into her account.
Oh well, random rant today, what to rant about I ponder ...
Well I just received an email to say that Jelly Belly jellybeans haven't been certified as "Halal" but are apparently Kosher, I thought that was weird why put quotations marks around halal and not kosher, it's generally the same thing, just 2 different faiths, not sure whether I wanna go buy any now considering that just seemed such a weird response. It's not like halal is an alien term to the uk or anything. And if that's how they're gonna address a question do they deserve my commerce ...
And now back to work seeing as my lunch is over, ttfn!
As you might be able to tell, I have a song in my mind that refuses to move, it's not something I partically enjoy but meh, I'll blame some random folk with the fact ...
Anyhow I totally got played by my own mother, she left me traumatised that I killed a pigeon, it figures that I didn't kill it, as it was flying off merrily into the distance and she saw it looked okay, so then I pondered is it better to be a dead pigeon or a disabled one, seeing as they don't have a jcp in order to go claim unemployment and all that.
Also had a fantastic time accidentally putting a cheque for my mum into my account, so had to wait quite a while in order to have them take it out of the machine so that they could give it back to me, just fustrated at myself because I keep forgetting to get the account details from my mum in order for me to go into the bank and go deposit it into her account.
Oh well, random rant today, what to rant about I ponder ...
Well I just received an email to say that Jelly Belly jellybeans haven't been certified as "Halal" but are apparently Kosher, I thought that was weird why put quotations marks around halal and not kosher, it's generally the same thing, just 2 different faiths, not sure whether I wanna go buy any now considering that just seemed such a weird response. It's not like halal is an alien term to the uk or anything. And if that's how they're gonna address a question do they deserve my commerce ...
And now back to work seeing as my lunch is over, ttfn!
Tuesday 17 May 2011
Sparks ...
Song - Evanescence - Bring me to Life
Okay well I did an extremely bad thing yesterday I killed a pigeon, I was like argh, but the thing didn't fly away fast enough and my brakes didn't work fast enough, and once it was all over, say 2 seconds later, the first thing that came to mind was how pretty it's feathers were ... and then was totally phased out for the rest of the trip home, parked the car and the first thing I said was "Did I just kill a bird" Not sure whether it was trauma or not but I was on automatic for about half an hour, I know I've killed wasps and everything in the past, but that was me using a slipper after the things wouldn't take the hint of open windows to escape and I feared me getting stung more then their lives. Maybe because I don't see pigeons as pests was why I actually thought more about it, it was such a moment thing, once second there, the next gone and me not even knowing what I'm doing but driving on automatic for several miles, I sometimes wonder how I drive seeing as I don't think I remember the journeys but don't appear to get in any accidents or anything, maybe I should record myself ... or maybe I pay attention for the short term but don't think it necessary to keep it in my mind and thus dispose of the info later.
Oh and totally half forgot about the party, and half was busy with other stuff, so there's me procrastinating for some semi decent reasons.
Contemplating thoughts of the day ... I don't believe I have any ... I kinda ponder on stuff like the whole basis 12 personality types and the similarities throughout the ages with this number 12, associating it with stuff that was preordained and whatnot. What types of stuff makes people get along, what doesn't, and do differences make us get on better or worse, and embracing all these differences can help us progress, or only by encouraging the better aspects of a person's personality can this be done. But because the other parts weren't nutured does that mean society has lost out and/or that person will never really be whole and thus have a void missing in their lives.
And are humans there to make up for each others weaknesses or to teach people so that the weakness becomes a strength and the person can stand alone and help another ... (all of this cos I killed a bird, thinking about that I didn't even check under my bonnet to see whether there's blood or anything ...)
Okay well I did an extremely bad thing yesterday I killed a pigeon, I was like argh, but the thing didn't fly away fast enough and my brakes didn't work fast enough, and once it was all over, say 2 seconds later, the first thing that came to mind was how pretty it's feathers were ... and then was totally phased out for the rest of the trip home, parked the car and the first thing I said was "Did I just kill a bird" Not sure whether it was trauma or not but I was on automatic for about half an hour, I know I've killed wasps and everything in the past, but that was me using a slipper after the things wouldn't take the hint of open windows to escape and I feared me getting stung more then their lives. Maybe because I don't see pigeons as pests was why I actually thought more about it, it was such a moment thing, once second there, the next gone and me not even knowing what I'm doing but driving on automatic for several miles, I sometimes wonder how I drive seeing as I don't think I remember the journeys but don't appear to get in any accidents or anything, maybe I should record myself ... or maybe I pay attention for the short term but don't think it necessary to keep it in my mind and thus dispose of the info later.
Oh and totally half forgot about the party, and half was busy with other stuff, so there's me procrastinating for some semi decent reasons.
Contemplating thoughts of the day ... I don't believe I have any ... I kinda ponder on stuff like the whole basis 12 personality types and the similarities throughout the ages with this number 12, associating it with stuff that was preordained and whatnot. What types of stuff makes people get along, what doesn't, and do differences make us get on better or worse, and embracing all these differences can help us progress, or only by encouraging the better aspects of a person's personality can this be done. But because the other parts weren't nutured does that mean society has lost out and/or that person will never really be whole and thus have a void missing in their lives.
And are humans there to make up for each others weaknesses or to teach people so that the weakness becomes a strength and the person can stand alone and help another ... (all of this cos I killed a bird, thinking about that I didn't even check under my bonnet to see whether there's blood or anything ...)
Monday 16 May 2011
Miracles ...
Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You
Well today I'm living of caffeine, well not really just Ibuprofen, just rushed into work, just about made it on time! Yippee, and then just started random talk to users. I feel blessed for having half a memory cell in my noggin seeing as most stuff that came from me to users today was all from my memory and I actually helped half of them out and felt great doing it!
I aslo randomly read a story about large tarantulas creating silk from their legs/feet/ or whatnot in order to create more grip, to hold onto a surface when upright or it's shaking, was pretty cool, although I was suprised that people have taken these spiders apart and never noticed this before, although I'm not sure I'm one to support killing and opening things for science, it's more then just a bit sickening.
Just another thing to make me realise how amazing this world and the creatures within it are, walking/talking miracles and yet we take it all for granted most of the time.
Sometimes I wonder at how I live life, forgetting these small but crucial things, taking everything for granted and being more worried about the unimportant things (like how the Wii remote never seems to respond when I want it to and thus that being teh reason why I lose the game and can't perform the ubertrick in time!)
And now I depart virtually to the land of work in order to try and help folk, most of them are just basic things, but I do need to clue myself up on my techy stuff so lets hope I spend less time on teh Wii and more reading the books ...
Toodles folks and have fun o/
Well today I'm living of caffeine, well not really just Ibuprofen, just rushed into work, just about made it on time! Yippee, and then just started random talk to users. I feel blessed for having half a memory cell in my noggin seeing as most stuff that came from me to users today was all from my memory and I actually helped half of them out and felt great doing it!
I aslo randomly read a story about large tarantulas creating silk from their legs/feet/ or whatnot in order to create more grip, to hold onto a surface when upright or it's shaking, was pretty cool, although I was suprised that people have taken these spiders apart and never noticed this before, although I'm not sure I'm one to support killing and opening things for science, it's more then just a bit sickening.
Just another thing to make me realise how amazing this world and the creatures within it are, walking/talking miracles and yet we take it all for granted most of the time.
Sometimes I wonder at how I live life, forgetting these small but crucial things, taking everything for granted and being more worried about the unimportant things (like how the Wii remote never seems to respond when I want it to and thus that being teh reason why I lose the game and can't perform the ubertrick in time!)
And now I depart virtually to the land of work in order to try and help folk, most of them are just basic things, but I do need to clue myself up on my techy stuff so lets hope I spend less time on teh Wii and more reading the books ...
Toodles folks and have fun o/
Sunday 15 May 2011
Lazy Days (or I'm just ill) ...
Song - Enya - Only time
Okay well a tad busy yesterday as I should be today, but I'm sick, so feeling urgh.
Ate breakfast whilst watching The Apprentice You're Fired with mum, proper cracked me up when my mum just said all of a sudden (about Alex) no wonder he didn't win look at his wonky ear!
I was sat here last night, well some of it pondering on wither humans are selfish of selfless creatures. You look at mothers and see such selfless love, but on the same hand you see supposed adults give birth who are not fit to be mothers, rearing kids with bu regard as to how the kid will turn out. Amazingly though some of these children turn out to be such diamonds that you wouldn't make any of those women become infertile for these rare gems.
Today - meh I need sleep or something I'm of to lala land!
Okay well a tad busy yesterday as I should be today, but I'm sick, so feeling urgh.
Ate breakfast whilst watching The Apprentice You're Fired with mum, proper cracked me up when my mum just said all of a sudden (about Alex) no wonder he didn't win look at his wonky ear!
I was sat here last night, well some of it pondering on wither humans are selfish of selfless creatures. You look at mothers and see such selfless love, but on the same hand you see supposed adults give birth who are not fit to be mothers, rearing kids with bu regard as to how the kid will turn out. Amazingly though some of these children turn out to be such diamonds that you wouldn't make any of those women become infertile for these rare gems.
Today - meh I need sleep or something I'm of to lala land!
Friday 13 May 2011
Ventures ...
Song - Breaking Benjamins - So Cold
Today I was nearly late, I cycled from home, and then cycled back realising that I left my workpass at home, how daft am I? Anywho luckily I left real early anyhow due to having to go to the bank and still had time, I forgot there are no queues at half 10 because other folk are working, huzzah!!
And then I started pondering during my day, I need to get back to my geeky/nerdy phase, seems a tad mashed in the head if most of my knowledge was acquired in the first years of my life and then after that I kinda lost interest having seen some harsh realities in the world, which I should have kinda gotten over at that age, but it appeared I left myself behind in the illusion that I had grown when in reality I was still stalling.
So I pondered education, how much I need to learn more, people, how I need to start communicating to people again (although I did try a resolution this year of keeping in touch with folk so hopefully this one should be cool - hoping) and gaining wisdom through the lessons I have faced and the lessons that others teach me, be this from a book, a person or any other way that life chooses to teach me.
Are these goals we should see as individual ventures or something that is just seen as a collective path and done alongside one another, in order to achieve a better result for each choice made.
And now I’m lost for words and not thinking at all, so I’m about to switch off seeing as I’m a tad tired and need food in order to go hibernate for the night and be happy in sleep!
Today I was nearly late, I cycled from home, and then cycled back realising that I left my workpass at home, how daft am I? Anywho luckily I left real early anyhow due to having to go to the bank and still had time, I forgot there are no queues at half 10 because other folk are working, huzzah!!
And then I started pondering during my day, I need to get back to my geeky/nerdy phase, seems a tad mashed in the head if most of my knowledge was acquired in the first years of my life and then after that I kinda lost interest having seen some harsh realities in the world, which I should have kinda gotten over at that age, but it appeared I left myself behind in the illusion that I had grown when in reality I was still stalling.
So I pondered education, how much I need to learn more, people, how I need to start communicating to people again (although I did try a resolution this year of keeping in touch with folk so hopefully this one should be cool - hoping) and gaining wisdom through the lessons I have faced and the lessons that others teach me, be this from a book, a person or any other way that life chooses to teach me.
Are these goals we should see as individual ventures or something that is just seen as a collective path and done alongside one another, in order to achieve a better result for each choice made.
And now I’m lost for words and not thinking at all, so I’m about to switch off seeing as I’m a tad tired and need food in order to go hibernate for the night and be happy in sleep!
Thursday 12 May 2011
Rain ...
Song - Sonna Rele - Bring on the Rain
I once read somewhere that if we ever fine imprefection and seek guidance then look to the sky, for there is where perfection lies, I have no idea where I saw this, but it does generally get me to look up at the sky whenever I've feeling down and out, or even when I'm feeling great, for how else to feel thankful but to appreciate what is already there.
That may explain my I love the rain, it's part of a cycle that needs to happen and there is beauty in it, you only have to see it. Although my clothes, mother and immune system may hate me but I love my walks in the rain, just walking along draining the excess unecessary thing trying to picture your same but crucial place in the world. We may be like a grain of rice, but each grain of rice will have it's moment, be they known to all of mankind or just to themselves.
Well of I go to lunch, toodles folks, food awaits and the sky beckons before it pours!
I once read somewhere that if we ever fine imprefection and seek guidance then look to the sky, for there is where perfection lies, I have no idea where I saw this, but it does generally get me to look up at the sky whenever I've feeling down and out, or even when I'm feeling great, for how else to feel thankful but to appreciate what is already there.
That may explain my I love the rain, it's part of a cycle that needs to happen and there is beauty in it, you only have to see it. Although my clothes, mother and immune system may hate me but I love my walks in the rain, just walking along draining the excess unecessary thing trying to picture your same but crucial place in the world. We may be like a grain of rice, but each grain of rice will have it's moment, be they known to all of mankind or just to themselves.
Well of I go to lunch, toodles folks, food awaits and the sky beckons before it pours!
Wednesday 11 May 2011
Letters ...
Song - Flaw - My Letter
Well today started, well I slept after 12, so got a long nap for several hours to start my day ^_^. I then got a crick in my neck and thought I'd just lie down again, 40 minutes later woke up feeling great :D.
Then went to town before work and brought some brown trousers, since my others got wrecked, although as I forgot to tie up my trousers I know have oil on my navy trousers! Although it didn't go through the chain so all good, just put them in the wash when I get home and hope it comes out! All in all a great day so far.
There are also some random folk in town giving out free chocolate but they weren't set up, so hopefully lunchtime should be great in regards to getting more chocolate! And pondering whether to get some olive green eye liner, although I've although got emerald and don't use it very often so possibly a waste of money if I do buy for an impulse want rather then something that I need ...
Anywho, trying to organise a party that I don't even have a date for, and have now decided it's gonna be a small gathering of my fellow female friends and just get them round my house just to chill out, have bring a dish - as I can't cook and it helps the variety of the meal ^_^ - thoughts ...
I know I have something else to say, but I've totally forgetten, although that reminds me I need to post some letters, let's hope I remember to post em!
Take care of yourselves ppl :D
Well today started, well I slept after 12, so got a long nap for several hours to start my day ^_^. I then got a crick in my neck and thought I'd just lie down again, 40 minutes later woke up feeling great :D.
Then went to town before work and brought some brown trousers, since my others got wrecked, although as I forgot to tie up my trousers I know have oil on my navy trousers! Although it didn't go through the chain so all good, just put them in the wash when I get home and hope it comes out! All in all a great day so far.
There are also some random folk in town giving out free chocolate but they weren't set up, so hopefully lunchtime should be great in regards to getting more chocolate! And pondering whether to get some olive green eye liner, although I've although got emerald and don't use it very often so possibly a waste of money if I do buy for an impulse want rather then something that I need ...
Anywho, trying to organise a party that I don't even have a date for, and have now decided it's gonna be a small gathering of my fellow female friends and just get them round my house just to chill out, have bring a dish - as I can't cook and it helps the variety of the meal ^_^ - thoughts ...
I know I have something else to say, but I've totally forgetten, although that reminds me I need to post some letters, let's hope I remember to post em!
Take care of yourselves ppl :D
Tuesday 10 May 2011
Flow ...
Song - Jennifer Lopez - What is Love
Hmm and here was me thinking I could easily do a blog every day. Although I did write a whole essay yesterday but it got lost somewhere in the cosmos and I couldn't recall what I had written so I left it alone.
I'm feeling half mellow, half not, not sure if I'm tired or not. Well I've been reminded of weird folk today. One thing people may know about me is don't insult me or mine, I will want to pick up the nearest 2x4 and whack you with it. Although if I think you're a safe individual I'll let you insult me, seeing as it might just be banter, letting of steam or mainly something in my character I need to work on. But don't insult the folk I care about, they is a reason I hold those people in esteem and that's not so idiot folk can try and belittle them through their uncreative speech which much of the time makes no sense anyhow and would be comical if it wasn't a veiled insult at best.
Are people just insecure when they start making up traits that ppl do not possess, is it a matter of just trying to make themselves feel just that little bit better, or is it just a habit taht they have learned of another and they feel it acceptable to spread this taint spread across the population rather then trying to encourage everyone to come together in order to reach a higher state for society in general so that we can excel and make something for the future generation, so they don't look back and wonder why we wrecked it all for them.
Talking about future generations, I've recently been pondering hijab, should I, shouldn't I. I've always felt somewhat separate from the whole issue feeling that I don't really represent the muslimahs very well, not the most religious of people and all. Although I did recently ask a fair few folk and most of them thought I was pretty religious, I felt somewhat humbled by the response as I don't really know how my image represents itself to the world and do occasionally fear taht I'm portraying myself to be a right dolt much of the time (luckily though most think I'm still at school for some reason, I've asked folk I no longer look 16 I just act like an 8 yr old, and it's only my use of language that has them thinking I'm older than the 8 years I act like! However this means I get let of for a lot of stuff ^_^). But another reason for it would be that the marriage market would be so different, then I could ponder at getting hitched to the more religious folk , however with me questioning my faith at every hurdle I ponder as to whether this is a valid reason for wanting to wear the hijab, everything is written and should I change something for a gain in this world, yes a life partner is more then something material, but would I only want a life partner because it's seen as the next step and something that needs to be done, rather then me wanting to get into a relationship in order to further my iman and get that potential upgrade in paradise(!).
Anyhow I'm losing my train of thought again I'm gonna go back to train watching (yes no pun intended) and finally realised why trains start beeping whilst pulling away from a platform - because there are workman on the tracks and they're informing them to get out of the way!
Hmm and here was me thinking I could easily do a blog every day. Although I did write a whole essay yesterday but it got lost somewhere in the cosmos and I couldn't recall what I had written so I left it alone.
I'm feeling half mellow, half not, not sure if I'm tired or not. Well I've been reminded of weird folk today. One thing people may know about me is don't insult me or mine, I will want to pick up the nearest 2x4 and whack you with it. Although if I think you're a safe individual I'll let you insult me, seeing as it might just be banter, letting of steam or mainly something in my character I need to work on. But don't insult the folk I care about, they is a reason I hold those people in esteem and that's not so idiot folk can try and belittle them through their uncreative speech which much of the time makes no sense anyhow and would be comical if it wasn't a veiled insult at best.
Are people just insecure when they start making up traits that ppl do not possess, is it a matter of just trying to make themselves feel just that little bit better, or is it just a habit taht they have learned of another and they feel it acceptable to spread this taint spread across the population rather then trying to encourage everyone to come together in order to reach a higher state for society in general so that we can excel and make something for the future generation, so they don't look back and wonder why we wrecked it all for them.
Talking about future generations, I've recently been pondering hijab, should I, shouldn't I. I've always felt somewhat separate from the whole issue feeling that I don't really represent the muslimahs very well, not the most religious of people and all. Although I did recently ask a fair few folk and most of them thought I was pretty religious, I felt somewhat humbled by the response as I don't really know how my image represents itself to the world and do occasionally fear taht I'm portraying myself to be a right dolt much of the time (luckily though most think I'm still at school for some reason, I've asked folk I no longer look 16 I just act like an 8 yr old, and it's only my use of language that has them thinking I'm older than the 8 years I act like! However this means I get let of for a lot of stuff ^_^). But another reason for it would be that the marriage market would be so different, then I could ponder at getting hitched to the more religious folk , however with me questioning my faith at every hurdle I ponder as to whether this is a valid reason for wanting to wear the hijab, everything is written and should I change something for a gain in this world, yes a life partner is more then something material, but would I only want a life partner because it's seen as the next step and something that needs to be done, rather then me wanting to get into a relationship in order to further my iman and get that potential upgrade in paradise(!).
Anyhow I'm losing my train of thought again I'm gonna go back to train watching (yes no pun intended) and finally realised why trains start beeping whilst pulling away from a platform - because there are workman on the tracks and they're informing them to get out of the way!
Friday 6 May 2011
Roles ...
Song - Flaw - My Letter
Okay I just came back from a talk where I saw Lauren Booth and Yvonne Ridley, was pretty cool. One thing that played in my mind was Lauren when she said:
I am of a cheery disposition, should my car crash, my kids turn out bad, i'll say Hey I made a great omelette!
Best turn of phrase ever.
Totally made my day and so I thought I'd share ...
Toodles!
Okay I just came back from a talk where I saw Lauren Booth and Yvonne Ridley, was pretty cool. One thing that played in my mind was Lauren when she said:
I am of a cheery disposition, should my car crash, my kids turn out bad, i'll say Hey I made a great omelette!
Best turn of phrase ever.
Totally made my day and so I thought I'd share ...
Toodles!
Speak ...
Song - Linkin Park - The Requiem
Right well here's a blog in the middle of the day just to see how my mood varies during the day, just spoke to someone who thought I was a tad weird but I encouraged his weirdness and so let it shine and so he told me of how he'd electrocuted his fingers. I was a tad O_O but it's all good, rather have happy people in the world, easier to deal with day-to-day stuff :D
And we had a merry old conversation about computers and what would happen if your keyboard just came to life, would we run or not, etc. You get the picture.
I currently have a nocturnal person I'm emailing, they email at night I email during the day. Yes I'm using my I am too tired to be calling ppl at 00:30, just realised how outdated convos can get as we have to wait days to make points back and forth and as they ain't used to emails and better at talking, so trying to get legible emails from them was a bit of a challenge at the beginning.
Just helps you realise the different types of communication in the world and the way we have to adapt. Reminds me of when I had to talk to some deaf builders, anyone who knows me will know I hate looking people in the eye, but I had no problem talking to these builders, was this because it's something that they needed whereas other folk only tend to try and read me because they think they are able to interpret the signals I may display to the world.
Communication, varies for each person I meet as they have all had their own experiences and I get told I always see the good side in people, so I may assume someone is better then what they are. Although I see myself as a harsh critic and so I confuse myself between the perception people have and the perception I believe I have.
Oh well, it's Friday. Jummah Mubarak all :D
Right well here's a blog in the middle of the day just to see how my mood varies during the day, just spoke to someone who thought I was a tad weird but I encouraged his weirdness and so let it shine and so he told me of how he'd electrocuted his fingers. I was a tad O_O but it's all good, rather have happy people in the world, easier to deal with day-to-day stuff :D
And we had a merry old conversation about computers and what would happen if your keyboard just came to life, would we run or not, etc. You get the picture.
I currently have a nocturnal person I'm emailing, they email at night I email during the day. Yes I'm using my I am too tired to be calling ppl at 00:30, just realised how outdated convos can get as we have to wait days to make points back and forth and as they ain't used to emails and better at talking, so trying to get legible emails from them was a bit of a challenge at the beginning.
Just helps you realise the different types of communication in the world and the way we have to adapt. Reminds me of when I had to talk to some deaf builders, anyone who knows me will know I hate looking people in the eye, but I had no problem talking to these builders, was this because it's something that they needed whereas other folk only tend to try and read me because they think they are able to interpret the signals I may display to the world.
Communication, varies for each person I meet as they have all had their own experiences and I get told I always see the good side in people, so I may assume someone is better then what they are. Although I see myself as a harsh critic and so I confuse myself between the perception people have and the perception I believe I have.
Oh well, it's Friday. Jummah Mubarak all :D
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