Monday 5 May 2014

Words

Okay well I wasn't meant to publish this one until I could compose my thoughts ... but it accidentally got published and so it's just a stay thought rather than a rant ...

It wasn't what they said, it was when you listened to them

Regret

Fall Out Boy - Thanks for the Memories

So I have an ultimatum, I regretted it as soon as the words were released from my mouth, but as the answer was given it cemented the route that my thoughts had been traveling anyway.

I took a bit of time in order to ensure that I could behave in a befitting manner seeing as I'm not a saint and I need to try at least to allow people their choices and move out without burning the wooden structures that haphazardly created were not as stable as stone could have been, perhaps it's my fault for not using a different material, or even to allow the mountain to be dug into, allowing the structure to withhold anything except the earth of which it was composed.

However as someone once told me, I'm not indifferent because I feel too little it is because I feel too much. So although I can stay my tongue, the years still escape at the most inopportune moments.

Laughing as the pressure builds from within, trying to make plans that I should not have faltered from years before, where being content holds a world of welcome promises ...

Where praying is not an act of worship but need for sanity