Saturday, 30 November 2013

Pivot

Ninetoes feat. James Newman - Silver & Gold (Finder)

https://soundcloud.com/ninetoes78/ninetoes-feat-james-newman

We don't need money, we can live for free, I'd rather be poor with you baby you're the one I need,
We don't need money, we can live for free, I'd rather be poor with you and be happy

Silver and gold, silver and gold, If I'm the one that you hold, money don't mean anything (x2)
anything (x 12 - fades away)

I don't wanna work today, I don't wanna throw my life away, Same old story everyday, I don't wanna throw my life away (x 2)

I don't need
Silver and gold, silver and gold, If I'm the one that you hold, money don't mean anything (x2)

It's been a while, just because ... I'm in a thinking mode (when am I not?)

And because this is my space to rant it's about me (again!)

Folk wonder why back at uni I actually became more religious, I was one of those simple folk who hadn't looked more into her faith and just living it because I was told to and it suited my lifestyle, behaving as a buffer I didn't have to worry about having a social life like most folk in my class did, worry about having a relationship in the weird broken manners that others had, etc ... however a professor told me "your mum isn't here to monitor you, you can do anything" that was an eye opener I had never thought about this before. That day in my second year was the pivot and that's when I chose the creator over creation.

So from that point forward I tried to become more informed and thus to become more content with who I am as a person, because at the end of the day it's me who should make me happy. Some say you should surround yourself with supportive people that help you to develop yourself, however could this be countered with the strength of a person is seen in the times of when you have nothing, be this people, money, etc. So even if those you hold dear are not supportive what does one do, distance yourself from these folk or to listen to the advice that even after deep contemplation makes no sense.

So what do I do? I bottle up! Yeah ... oh well ... maybe I should find a good way to release, But I've done it for so long, each secret I have is my own burden that I bear as I have yet to see a reason to share any of my burdens with another ... so another pivot point in my life is going to occur and now I have to ponder what I'm going to do ...

Sami Yusuf - Forgotten Promises