Junai Kaden feat. Mumzy Stranger - Aaja Mere Naal

Okay my life - hmm not that exciting, just being lazy, seeing as I don't get to do the usual walks that I enjoy, music and all that. However on a more positive note I get to spend time reading more and hence learn more and gaining muscle in the arms, which I was always thinking about although I was planning push ups and pilates rather then crutches which is so bizarre although luckily I've only gone shopping with fellow folk so they get to hold everything for me ^_^ Ideal in a sense although I have to make time for my lack of speed which really makes me appreciate when folk aren't able to keep up with the speed I used to have, even my mum was like "Argh you old biddy!" (although this was in Punjabi) the other day when we were walking from the hospital to the bus stop so I could hop into town to go work.

And finally got the party that I was attempting to plan (yes thank you to my sisters and mum seeing as I'm useless at planning as well as the fact I'm pretty much useless at the mo) not sure if I'm gonna be winning the olympics but I have a feeling I need to practice on teh Mario Kart in order to win that, Zumba is a no-no and SSX Blur is pretty a no go as I've only played the thing once and it was well hard as I'm aware that my hands moved of their own accord when playing with the accord.

Well inshallah it should all be cool and maybe it was written so I am humbled by the loss I will make ^_^ however much excited.

Wasn't sure what I felt as I got told to try dating people, I was like o_O, and I want to do this because, so their response taht I needed to know what people were like so I could find the right guy to settle with. I have no idea what impression I give to people, do I give one where apparently waiting for some prince charming or something, I'm not special or anything, it would nice to find a guy who is perfect in everyway, but does that meant I reject everyone else because I haven't found Mr Perfect for me (Miss Imperfect), it just sounds absurd.

I choose not to date because I believe that there is logic in teh faith I have and that if I did it would hurt me as well as any potential partners, by fishing I may supposedly get to know folk more, however what hurt would I and the partner suffer before we found the right partner. Are we meant to wait for that click? There are plenty of folk that are compatible with other folk, just because they haven't met each other or considered themselves in that light with one another does that mean they wouldn't be able to get on in that capacity, of course not. Why some people think you should just go fishing, I recall one potential who was divorced and although he was teh sweetest of guys he was always comparing me to his ex, we may have been compatible did I wanna live my life knowing how I did or did not compare to another person. Yes I know not all folk are like this, however you always relate people in the mind and that kind of thinking can lead down an unhappy. Why some folk think they can walk in and out of something is beyond me, they do say that fools learn from their own mistakes and the wise from others'. Do I make myself a fool?

Oh well ramble over, just feelt weird when people start questioning the whole thing (especially when it's a fellow muslim telling me to do stuff!)

Chipmunk - Flying High

Okay well it's raining! Woot woot, well I'm happy although a tad hungry, so wasn't sure whether I should eat my sandwich or a nutri grain thing.

Dun dun dun, well I cannot decide so I might just wait a while, although my brother did say that whenever you get a craving you should eat, so I've been having a few Softmints although I should have a drink, lucozade!!!

Hunger sated for now, I was reading something the other day which said that we should eat enough to not be hungry, but not each too much that we are full. And then another saying that the stomach should be filled with 1/3 food, 1/3 drink and 1/3 air.

So gone half an hour, thought forget it and actually went and had my sandwich, so my lunch has been left free!! Woot woot!

Not really sure what to say for today haven't really had that many thoughts, I just ponder life in general conssting of teh same thoughts that go round and around in my mind for quite some time with no real resolution and mean more stuff to me then anyone else. And then I ponder this whole blogging experience thing which then means I could potentially be exposing my inner self to the world. Although as my sister so nicely put it, most of teh folk who read this probably won't know me anyway, seeing as when I occasionally check stats I do ponder at the folk in Denmark, Hngary, etc as I don't know people from either of those places, although thanks for reading my blog if you get this far.

Toodles for now :D

Sami Yusuf – Salaam

The exciting life of Tamina continues, discovered today that the internet at home was busted and had some money taken from my account, fun right? So learnt a little bit more about internet banking and am blaming the wonderful person in my household who manage to chuck a virus on the machine in the first place, so now I’m gonna do a factory reset cos I cannot be bothered trying to fix a problem which by all means appears to be sorted, but obviously isn’t, this is another point in my life where I just admit I’m a computer dunce and now the only way I know how to fix the problem of Vista, is a factory reset, as Windows obviously doesn’t care anymore and has no idea why Essentials Live and Windows Explorer 9 doesn’t run on my machine, I’m sure if I asked any other questions I’d get the same response from their tech team, regardless of however many logs I create whenever the machine mucks up!

I wonder how much more I’ll take before I just give up on Windows and actually go for another OS, seeing as I already went to Firefox from IE

What’s funny is it took the fraud team to tell me why my account was locking out time and again whereas online banking folk were pretty dim, reminds me of myself in first line, I’m not that techy I’m just doing first line and know as much as the next person, at present it’s just a matter of remembering certain things and then flogging the rest of the stuff, I do need to go read up some stuff and go back to my geeky ways and made a headstart by starting to read books again, although not of the techy sort and more religious so maybe it’s a good or not so good thing, but peace of mind means the world more then technology in my supposed humble mind.

Hmm and now I’ve forgotten what I wished to say. Okay well back to something I’ve noticed, people repeating stuff, they say if you repeat stuff it kinda changes your way of thinking, hence why people like the number 3, as advertising folks use it 3 times, people who wiosh to make an impact in their speeches tend to repeat the important point(s) 3 times, you’re getting my drift here right? Well positive mantras are all well and good, however folk don’t appear to realised how much they spread the negative, is this just because they are repeating what another person is saying, is it harder to feel good and easier to complain as we live in a society which likes to blame folk all the time. For instance my rta thing, partly my fault, partly the other guy’s is it his fault that I had a push bike and him a motor, hence why I got damaged more. Although thankful that all I got was one diddy injury which is gonna be fixed in a month (my excuse to not do the race for life!). Hmm

Oh well life is life and maybe it’s easier to share the pain, or maybe we need to develop ourselves as people so we don’t feel the need to always share the bad points in life and help create a more positive vibe about us, to embrace each and every person whomever they may be.

Words finished, I should check what I write, however it’s better to just leave it be, would that represent my thought process or something?

Toodles fair folk (be you elves or not!)

Song - City High - What would you do

Okay well update, hmm, well my leg or knee I should say. Went back to the hospital today where they went and did x rays again, this time doing my ankle as well, as teh lady wanted to know whether my fracture had spread or not., the ankle is fine and the knee hasn't got any worse, she said it may take upto a month to heal.

However as my tibia was okay I should be able to place weight on the leg, so very happy with that, seeing as I didn't want to be hobbling on crutches for too long, I do not like being dependant on sticks, however counting myself sooo lucky for having just a small fracture and that's apparently not too bad, so huzzah and I thank God, even if the doctor was so confused as to how I'd only manged to hurt a small part of the leg, although I think the fact that I've been treating it well should help matters ^_^

Anyhow back to random discussions I've been having with folk, I've concluded there are some very weird folk in the world today, I got called geek, just for being a little (and this means a tiny amount) more techy then another person, how does this make sense, although my sister concluded that it was true cos I don't answer questions with one word, or one sentence answers I start having full depth answers, an example being when i was talking about some visual impairments, i started discussing the retina and the cones and rods, etc, to which folk were like, erm, we don't care? maybe they should have said they don't care about the depth of the answer seeing as they asked the question in the first place.

also the next most discussed topic, marriage, i wonder if this topic will ever go away, however i guess when this occurs the next question would be kids and so the cycle continues. However why is this something that folk think they have a right to believe they know what's best for me and all that, what's even more amusing is when the people themselves are unmarried, i sometimes ponder whether i should say to them "and you know all this because?" people just amuse me in the way they just believe they know me purely because they've seen on side. I remember a teacher once said about me that I'm quiet until folk get to know me and then i cannot shut up, so if people are not yet at that level with me how can they expect to know me, however if i never tell them teh truth of this statement would they assume they know me purely because i haven't told them otherwise.

I recall I was speaking to someone who stated that they were unique and I pondered, no 2 people in this world are the same both inside and out, it's just a given that folks should know. However saying this, just because everyone is unique does that mean we are all teh same is the fact that we share uniqueness, or is the point even worth telling other people, seeing as if there is a sharing quality, surely it can be left unsaid rather then something that needs highlighting? Anyhow I've seen plenty of folk like this and I usually avoid them, as they just appear to be confused rather then anything, where they start mixing and matching what they think they believe ven if these are opposing things, althopugh they won't acknowledge they share both opinions they'll just class their opinion as a new one when it's just 2 separate ones which they believe to be one. Once confronted with this it appears the defensive stance is raised and the common "You don't understand" comes out. At times I used to ponder whether my mind was open or not and whether I actually understood folk, as I know I'm a very stubborn person on the best of days, this has nothing to do with faith and more to do with me just being a stubborn person (and my enlish lit teacher hated me for this seeing as I called romeo a womaniser and stuck to that opinion, probably meant why her teaching was crap for me seeing as she went and told my mum i was an idiot and it would be a lucky day if i got a "D", which i found hilarious as I was meant to be top set, go me for being monitored by teh exam folk throughout my childhood else that would have been my only bad grade. Anywho back to the open mindness I do ponder about this as although I'm open to whatever thoughts folk may have is this because I'm open or is it the whole "not in my back yard" mentality. I've had varying opinions (not even asked for but meh) about which one it is and so I leave the matter be as sometimes it can be by calling yourself something, you lose that quality you cliam to possess.

And if you got all that, huzzah, if not, erm, you'll need to ask if it's a typo or I'm just bad at explaining stuff, take care folk o/

Song - BSB - Masqerade

Okay I'm back at work, let's update folk on my life.

I went shopping yesterday for some trainers at JJB, as the store is closing, yes the rest of teh store thought I was weird also when I was crutching the trainers across the store to see how it felt, so I got some Zignanos and some although walking shoe, although my siblings were hampered greatly by me, so it ended up me not actually going into Asda or Iceland, cos my arms were well tired (I knew I should have been doing press ups and all that and having no upper body strength is failing me now, meh grateful for me being okay).

I had a desk change so I have some chocolate stored in my old desk but not feeling in the right mood to start crutching it across the office for a chocolate bar, maybe I should I dunno.

Although I need to pop to the loos and probably go outside for lunch just so I can get away from the desk for a bit, should I venture to it or not, and I discovered there’s a disabled button, even if most of the doors are fire safety doors which really doesn’t help in the greater scheme of things, it’s kinda fun, the manager of the floor even came and visited me, and asked me if I wanted anything, seeing as I’ve been scooting around on the floor with my wheelie chair! Although an idea of getting a motorchair was raised, it sounded pretty fun, although I know I can walk faster once my leg’s healed, so hopefully when I go see the bone specialist person tomorrow it should not be showing what they suspected as that hairline fracture thing, seeing as I have been keeping my weight off it (probably due to me falling over in various funny positions I’m sure!) Will probably just crutch it up when I take the bus tomorrow to town.

But once that’s done I’ll start the whole walking thing tomorrow, although will probably need the crutches still as it’s great for visibility and my leg seems to get tired and starts to just give out.

Okay enough analysis of my temporary position of being disabled as my sister is saying, I’m planning to be playing the Wii on Saturday (yes I could cheat however I’d rather not!)

Anywho that’s my update so far, just randomly at work, my first call of the day was a guy who hadn’t come in for 2 months and me for a week, ideal convo ^_^. And apparently I’m far too happy for a Monday, I totally believe that the weekend is for resting so people should be most energised on Monday why are other folk not the same …