Friday, 20 May 2011

Song - Blue - I Can

Well I've been in a thinking mode, well on and off at random intervals, thinking about ultimatums and whether it's acceptable for folk to give them to others or not.

For me I find the whole thing a tad weird, ultimatums are a basis of trust and forcing people to choose. And my two keys things are trust and honesty, if I find I don't trust you or deem you to be honest to me, I will not be friends with you, I may make politie conversation but not as a friend but an acquaintance. Everything else is secondly, be this belief, looks, etc. Although maybe it's my perception of the matter, how do I know what total trust and honesty are, I myself know I'm not completely honest, I'll tailor the truth accordingly to the audience, is that truth or is it a truth with omissions which can be interpreted in more then one way, and thus become a lie? So do people look for those who are simliar to them or similar to the ideal they look for?

Back to topic though if you decide to give people this wonderful option (the ultimatum), what does that say about you inside, are you just doing it to confirm your own opinion on the matter or are you just stating this so that you are, in essence, watching the person, waiting for them to disappoint you further along the line. I asked various folk and most wouldn't give an ultimatum. However as my wonderful sister said to me the other day, I'm very selective in who I ask questions, be it they share my opinions or not, the people I ask tend to be thinkers also and so I would receive responses that come from people having already spent time thinking about it, or they will. Rather then the masses who tend to make decisions regardless of what information is available on the matter.

The seeds of doubt are sown and there's no way to remove the damage that may occur. But what are the other options, I for one tend to be one of those people who would walk away from the situation, be this work, social, personal, etc. Which scar is greater, that for which you make a mistake or that for which you never explored and thus never knew what teh answer would have been. Does this cause us to start looking at the what if's and thus a vicious cycle, believeing in your mind that if something had happened it would have been better somehow.

The past should teach us our mistakes and the present help make us wiser for the future. But an ideal world is not what we live in and humankind, although amazing can be disappointing ceatures ...

Meh I need some sugar double decker or a boost bar? Toodles folks o/

Thursday, 19 May 2011

Humanity ...

Song - Fort Minor - Remember the name

Well I find went and got the incentive to start organising a party, putting both sisters as co party organiser, because I'd rather not do everything, like making food and what not ^_^

Finally discovered the group functionality and added various folks, dunno if that's everyone but I'm not the greatest of checklists for inviting folk and have delegated that task to my sister (although she's not yet aware of this fact)

However the board already has discussions which is pretty cool, seeing as I wasn't sure what would happen, but the board actually has a discussion and as it's a closed group it's free game for people in teh group to post whatever suggestions they have, Zumba was cool, water fight not so sure unless I'm in charge of the hose pipe, else I doubt I want any part to play in it.

I also made a decision which was a good step as it leads me a step into the right direction although I still need to think more and use the old noggin to try and rehash my communication skills although I'm half dreading it, it's something that will need to be addressed, so tally ho!

Should I try a philosophical subject? I dunno, sometimes I wonder whether I try and sound intelligent, is this something that we do as humans, try and do something in order to appear like we have a use in the world besides using up the world's resources for our ends ...

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

Memories ...

Song - Nicole Something (Yes I cannot spell her surname and too lazy to go look it up) - Whatever her new song is called

As you might be able to tell, I have a song in my mind that refuses to move, it's not something I partically enjoy but meh, I'll blame some random folk with the fact ...

Anyhow I totally got played by my own mother, she left me traumatised that I killed a pigeon, it figures that I didn't kill it, as it was flying off merrily into the distance and she saw it looked okay, so then I pondered is it better to be a dead pigeon or a disabled one, seeing as they don't have a jcp in order to go claim unemployment and all that.

Also had a fantastic time accidentally putting a cheque for my mum into my account, so had to wait quite a while in order to have them take it out of the machine so that they could give it back to me, just fustrated at myself because I keep forgetting to get the account details from my mum in order for me to go into the bank and go deposit it into her account.

Oh well, random rant today, what to rant about I ponder ...

Well I just received an email to say that Jelly Belly jellybeans haven't been certified as "Halal" but are apparently Kosher, I thought that was weird why put quotations marks around halal and not kosher, it's generally the same thing, just 2 different faiths, not sure whether I wanna go buy any now considering that just seemed such a weird response. It's not like halal is an alien term to the uk or anything. And if that's how they're gonna address a question do they deserve my commerce ...

And now back to work seeing as my lunch is over, ttfn!

Tuesday, 17 May 2011

Sparks ...

Song - Evanescence - Bring me to Life

Okay well I did an extremely bad thing yesterday I killed a pigeon, I was like argh, but the thing didn't fly away fast enough and my brakes didn't work fast enough, and once it was all over, say 2 seconds later, the first thing that came to mind was how pretty it's feathers were ... and then was totally phased out for the rest of the trip home, parked the car and the first thing I said was "Did I just kill a bird" Not sure whether it was trauma or not but I was on automatic for about half an hour, I know I've killed wasps and everything in the past, but that was me using a slipper after the things wouldn't take the hint of open windows to escape and I feared me getting stung more then their lives. Maybe because I don't see pigeons as pests was why I actually thought more about it, it was such a moment thing, once second there, the next gone and me not even knowing what I'm doing but driving on automatic for several miles, I sometimes wonder how I drive seeing as I don't think I remember the journeys but don't appear to get in any accidents or anything, maybe I should record myself ... or maybe I pay attention for the short term but don't think it necessary to keep it in my mind and thus dispose of the info later.

Oh and totally half forgot about the party, and half was busy with other stuff, so there's me procrastinating for some semi decent reasons.

Contemplating thoughts of the day ... I don't believe I have any ... I kinda ponder on stuff like the whole basis 12 personality types and the similarities throughout the ages with this number 12, associating it with stuff that was preordained and whatnot. What types of stuff makes people get along, what doesn't, and do differences make us get on better or worse, and embracing all these differences can help us progress, or only by encouraging the better aspects of a person's personality can this be done. But because the other parts weren't nutured does that mean society has lost out and/or that person will never really be whole and thus have a void missing in their lives.

And are humans there to make up for each others weaknesses or to teach people so that the weakness becomes a strength and the person can stand alone and help another ... (all of this cos I killed a bird, thinking about that I didn't even check under my bonnet to see whether there's blood or anything ...)

Monday, 16 May 2011

Miracles ...

Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You

Well today I'm living of caffeine, well not really just Ibuprofen, just rushed into work, just about made it on time! Yippee, and then just started random talk to users. I feel blessed for having half a memory cell in my noggin seeing as most stuff that came from me to users today was all from my memory and I actually helped half of them out and felt great doing it!

I aslo randomly read a story about large tarantulas creating silk from their legs/feet/ or whatnot in order to create more grip, to hold onto a surface when upright or it's shaking, was pretty cool, although I was suprised that people have taken these spiders apart and never noticed this before, although I'm not sure I'm one to support killing and opening things for science, it's more then just a bit sickening.

Just another thing to make me realise how amazing this world and the creatures within it are, walking/talking miracles and yet we take it all for granted most of the time.

Sometimes I wonder at how I live life, forgetting these small but crucial things, taking everything for granted and being more worried about the unimportant things (like how the Wii remote never seems to respond when I want it to and thus that being teh reason why I lose the game and can't perform the ubertrick in time!)

And now I depart virtually to the land of work in order to try and help folk, most of them are just basic things, but I do need to clue myself up on my techy stuff so lets hope I spend less time on teh Wii and more reading the books ...

Toodles folks and have fun o/

Sunday, 15 May 2011

Lazy Days (or I'm just ill) ...

Song - Enya - Only time

Okay well a tad busy yesterday as I should be today, but I'm sick, so feeling urgh.

Ate breakfast whilst watching The Apprentice You're Fired with mum, proper cracked me up when my mum just said all of a sudden (about Alex) no wonder he didn't win look at his wonky ear!

I was sat here last night, well some of it pondering on wither humans are selfish of selfless creatures. You look at mothers and see such selfless love, but on the same hand you see supposed adults give birth who are not fit to be mothers, rearing kids with bu regard as to how the kid will turn out. Amazingly though some of these children turn out to be such diamonds that you wouldn't make any of those women become infertile for these rare gems.

Today - meh I need sleep or something I'm of to lala land!