Friday 22 April 2011

Companionship ...

Song - Francisco - Should We Go Our Own Way

Hmm well I thought about it and decided perhaps I should write about the companionship angle, I keep getting asked at present about potential partners, always a subject I just really cannot be bothered delving into as most people think I'm slightly strange for not be attracted to anyone. For anyone who's an environmentalist this should be excellent news, I'm not procreating and thus helping save the planet, lol.

In reality a life partner would be cool, someone to share your life with and hopefully grow old with, someone with who you can learn from and vice versa, having the chance to be giving and if kids are part of that future, to help the generation of tomorrow by equipping them with the tools needed (mainly giving them some common sense!) And diversifying the planet.

However how to find this partner, and what qualities should you expect, where does one draw the line on compromise, should they have the same religious/ethical/etc views as yourself or should you be complete opposites ...

What's funny is the way people expect you to just meet someone and just get hitched to them. Me personally I laugh because I don't go to work or any event in order to meet a potential partner. And most folk that know me will know that I'm actually pretty shy and find the only way I start talking to folk is to give them a mental relationship in my head, like uncle, brother, sister, etc. Or I'm just polite I have no time to waste hating people, such a massive energy drain ... anywho having to place people in these groups, you might just see how I don't find folk attractive in my eyes, as who actually thinks their close relative is hot, urgh!

Someone once told me that you never truly know someone until you live with them and tbh I'd agree totally, seen far too many people show different masks depending on where/whom they're with. And at home is the only place that you can be yourself. Some also say that the older you are the less able you are to compromise with a potential partner, but of you have no idea would you expect them to cater to your ever whim or would give everything in order to make something work.

So problems seem to arise on all sides, of would it just be m excuse made so that I won't get involved for whichever reason my mind is not telling me off ...

Well I'll sit back and ponder on it's whilst all the funny stories of potentials goes through my mind, consisting of various folk like the lady who never heard of pasta, the guy who is more shy than I, the mother bride shopping (only to be rejected by the only bride she approved of), the cricket player, gas man, always a student never a bread winner, trophy wife hunter, and the list continues (any story you can make in your head has probably been some potential grooms and their families I'm sure!) ...

Take care for now ppl I need something cool for all this weather ... o/

Thursday 21 April 2011

Pain ...

Song – Francisco – Senorita

4 day weekend!! No idea what it entails, plans would most likely be dashed, but certain people need to text me as to what they’re doing, meh!

But anyhow to the blog, my hand kills, I have deduced it’s due to me dropping my bike on Tuesday and as I’ve not really been resting it properly so it now hurts seeing as I have nothing to focus on the pain is coming more to the front of my mind.

But hey ho, gotta live with it, people have worse pain in the world, I realised earlier this week I need to start reading up the books that I dashed aside a lil while back in order to get the studying back on track. Learn a new thing everyday is all well and good but I need to start getting some letters so I can supposedly put them next to my name.

I also just thought should I put the weirdness of marriage potentials on here, everyone goes through it to some degree, just different depending on the methods you use, albeit dating and finding your perfect partner or getting the rents to do it though arranged and all that.

And my hand hurts too much I’m gonna go do something else, if anyone wants call me I ain’t bothered typing anymore ...

Toodles folks o/

Wednesday 20 April 2011

Karma ...

Song - Chris Brown - Deuces

Well how to describe my day, I totally forgot my keys all of them! So had no idea what to do with my bike, I only had 20 minutes til work started, so randomly went to the back of the building and just parked it on a bike rack and hoped for the best. And the bike was still there at the end of the day! Woot woot.

I guess that brings me to my thoughts about honour and karma. Should we have honour because it was given to is or should we honour others for the sake of it. Same applies to karma, does good come to us because we have done some good and this becoming incentive for good actions or should we perform good deeds for the sake of it?

It's like when people say I'm nice or weird, am I really nice or is this just in comparison to modern or only that they circle of friends they have aren't as varied as thy could be, same for the quirkiness as you can tell.

So now I'm dossing and watching CSI and wondering at what my sister said telling me that I shouldn't become addicted to this, is there any way to tell if you become addicted or not

And considering how many random thoughts I have I wonder have many are even productive in my life and sometimes wonder if I even learn 1 thing a day ...

Toodles for now o/

Tuesday 19 April 2011

Ties that bind ...

Song – Craig David ft Sting – Rise and Fall
A man with a so-called character is often a simple piece of mechanism; he has often only one point of view for the extremely complicated relationships of life.
August Strindberg

Sometimes I feel that I chose all the wrong decisions, should I regret these decisions, or cherish them for the lessons I should have learned from them? But for each decision made, I made a new acquaintance be they only temporary who helped me make a decision which affected me later in life, be it moments or years afterward.

So this entry is a big thank you to all those I’ve met in my life, for whatever reason I’ve met you, you’ve helped make me the person I am today!

Monday 18 April 2011

Hope ...

Song - Apocalyptica – Fade to Black

All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name.
Andre Breton

Started the new job today, hmm is about the only word I think of, I wonder is it a good thing to put down the place you used to work for, I may have found the pervious role a tad boring, but it was a job and I liked the people i worked with they were a great bunch and helped me survive with my humour and all :D

Wasn’t really thinking about much today, just got told to go read The Alchemist, a boy’s journey, to become what I wonder or is it the journey itself that’s important ...

Anyhow I lost my complete train of thought and pondered on hope, they say if you love something you’ll let it go and if it comes back then it is yours, if not it was never yours to begin with. But what if too much time elapses that you no longer know whether it was loved or not. Then they say that true friendship is where you can talk to someone after any number of years and still be as tight as you where, people, hearts, emotions, all far too confusing and then I get told that I see the good in people, well if I see the good that’s because they have good in them, although this may tend to mean that I start over estimating people. Although is over estimating a person something that could be counted as a judgement call and should therefore not be done. Or would it be dependent on the reasons for judging this matter.

Sunday 17 April 2011

Material ...

Song - Nas ft Damian Marley - Patience

I keep getting asked as of late what I would do if I received a windfall, in all honesty what would I do...

One example was would I accept a billion pounds if I didn’t contact my mum ever, I said no, my sister later called me an idiot and said all I’d have to do is fix a clause and then I could speak to my mum by writing letters or something in order to contact her through the loop hole given by the contract. And if I didn’t take the money my mum would call me dumb as I could have done so much good with it. I laughed. Does that mean my intellect took a backseat to my own ethics and so I lost a potential chance to do something ...

Is it normal to not go after the material possessions of this world, when I have a cake I generally tend to see who else wants the cake (unless it’s the siblings then it’s first come first serve else I’d never get a piece ^_^), happiness isn’t in having something for a moment but spreading this feeling to those around you, some people will respect you without any preamble and some need to have the respect earned. I probably stick myself in the later I might be nice to you but I’d not gonna ask you to look after my goldfish (I don’t actually have a goldfish but you get my drift) if I have no idea what your true habits are like. And is it courage (or some might say foolishness) to have the ability to trust random folk with something that is cherished by you.

And I should probably go back to the real world, seeing as most of the family are home and I should cherish these moments we have together, toodles ppl and enjoy the day, week, month, year, decade, however long you may live :D