Nouman Khalid - Desi Thumka
Hmm, okay well another recent thought I've been having, well not really it's been in the back of my mind because I half forgot, but anyway had a bookshelf fall on me (yes I'm fine hence why I'm able to write/type this) and thought.
I told a person I black out whenever I've been in a fight, and then I got asked have I ever been beaten (bar my mum doing this as a child even if some folk think this would be beats enough). I honestly thought no so I said no, then realised wait I have, and then thought I may black out, but this is usually when I retaliate and so then I can't fight so no idea what happens, but my nan thought I was possessed so might have acted like a berserker, but it's been a long time since this has happened an I grew up and discovered that the laws of the jungle are left in childhood.
Adults fight in a meaner world where words are weapons, even if they forget what they said these are ingrained into our minds and in part help shape us, regardless of whether we like the folk who use these words we'll remember some words more then others.
One reason why I never chased a management role and why I shy away from kids, although only 1 person figured this out ever, and sometimes I think he only learnt to read me because when he changed I changed towards him, sad it might be but our friends represent parts of ourselves and if you don't wish to have that part that detach from it and improve yourself (that's what I did perhaps I'm not strong enough to hold on and change us both). Risk, that's the key, am I willing to risk it in order help elevate the standards or do I play it safe in order to not have to worry about a wrong that I may/may-not cause.
Some folk are quick to agree that those that smile most are the ones who have hurt most, however these same folk fail to look around them and consider that it is their parent/sibling/friend who is the one who smiles most ... some folk don't realise that in the ability to show predictable behaviour they forget to look deeper and realise it's not so black & white. Decisions which may seem rash have come from years of experience teaching and thinking about the situation But we're all judgemental twits so what do we know. When we look to teh future we imagine what our own future holds, for us and our descendants rather then humanity. And when we consider a wrong we determine whether it is a wrong to us or an institution that we have no care for. Forgetting to realise that in allowing this injustice which they may perceive to not be concerning them they have isolated themselves and when they become affected the same treatment will happen to them that they gave others ...
Oh well, end of another selfish rant ...
Saturday 25 May 2013
Meh ...
Imran Khan - Hey Girl
Okay so I haven't really sat down and done a proper blog in quite some time, probably due to me both blocking my emotions ad finding other outlets ...
Anyhow let's see what I was going to write about today, okay crime, when a crime is committed should people behave in a reactive manner?
With the whole media broadcast done on a poor guy everyone suddenly has an opinion, some are defending their opinions, other getting sick of the way the media behaves and the way they start analysing weird angles which go away from the actual story, some defend themselves, some choose this as a great time to should their ignorance and hatred and some just don't care.
I have no idea where to place myself, I don't believe that the whole situation was justified and I cannot imagine the pain his family must be going through, so Drummer Lee Rigby my thoughts are with him and his family.
I've never experienced a death of someone close to me, I recall my nan died when I was quite young and she was in another country, however I don't recall feeling that much pain, I knew she was old and that she parted on good terms with everyone and her death was natural and swift and I pray that it was without pain. Seeing as we all have to die one day perhaps I just accepted her death, and seeing as the remainder of my grandparents were dead I never had to go through their passing either.
So for the unfortunate incident that happened I felt a great sadness for everyone, not just the victim but for all those who were directly and indirectly affected. Why should we pile hate onto a sad situation? Why do we feel like a faith should be targeted? Why do we feel the need to defend our own beliefs?
But alas this is apparently what the people need as this is all they are obsessed on, the reactive. Else what could they do, be proactive is just hard ... and so it's left until a generation will be spawned who don't even know the meaning of proactive and reactive will be their lifestyle, maybe we're already there.
And then you get the ignorance and narrow minds of certain folk, whom all state that they are open minded (I may be called open minded but I know I have extreme prejudices against many things regardless of whether I'm aware of them yet or not, but that's my Jihad - Jihad means struggle to any idiots out there I'm not going to kill myself for anyone). Why oh why do people start associated unrelated things together, when they are not related and then have this stubborn attitude that it is. An example being a discussion I had with someone yesterday, somehow the death sentence is heinous, I stated that it can also be a good incentive for people to behave they countered with well the law is corrupt, I agreed however it a system that isn't flawed perhaps it would work, the response was no law is corrupt ... errr then they went on to say if you cannot rehabilitate folk who are murderers they should be killed - my opinion is let the victims' families decide, each crime has it's own justice.
Once I noticed this I started to pick up loads more stuff throughout the day, albeit random users who started bad mouthing Indian call centres to folk telling me I'm too demanding and hence why I cannot find a guy (that is a discussion for another day ...) unfortunately I started behaving as I did 10 years ago, as if I cared and tried to get people to understand the other side, why oh why? People are all annoying, all of them. This is why it's so hard to find a true friend, and then when I've found one I tend to stay away because I cherish the friendship and know I might wreck it, this could be due to me being too eccentric as I usually am or to their partner becoming jealous (still confused why this happens I'm not a person to be jealous over, seriously I have nothing going for me, maybe my eyes (supposedly) are so-so but I don't think I've met a person who I don't think "wow their eyes are so amazing"
No real conclusions, I never have them, it's just an open ended thinking process and I might think something different tomorrow, so toodles for now, whilst I contemplate buying a new bag ...
Okay so I haven't really sat down and done a proper blog in quite some time, probably due to me both blocking my emotions ad finding other outlets ...
Anyhow let's see what I was going to write about today, okay crime, when a crime is committed should people behave in a reactive manner?
With the whole media broadcast done on a poor guy everyone suddenly has an opinion, some are defending their opinions, other getting sick of the way the media behaves and the way they start analysing weird angles which go away from the actual story, some defend themselves, some choose this as a great time to should their ignorance and hatred and some just don't care.
I have no idea where to place myself, I don't believe that the whole situation was justified and I cannot imagine the pain his family must be going through, so Drummer Lee Rigby my thoughts are with him and his family.
I've never experienced a death of someone close to me, I recall my nan died when I was quite young and she was in another country, however I don't recall feeling that much pain, I knew she was old and that she parted on good terms with everyone and her death was natural and swift and I pray that it was without pain. Seeing as we all have to die one day perhaps I just accepted her death, and seeing as the remainder of my grandparents were dead I never had to go through their passing either.
So for the unfortunate incident that happened I felt a great sadness for everyone, not just the victim but for all those who were directly and indirectly affected. Why should we pile hate onto a sad situation? Why do we feel like a faith should be targeted? Why do we feel the need to defend our own beliefs?
But alas this is apparently what the people need as this is all they are obsessed on, the reactive. Else what could they do, be proactive is just hard ... and so it's left until a generation will be spawned who don't even know the meaning of proactive and reactive will be their lifestyle, maybe we're already there.
And then you get the ignorance and narrow minds of certain folk, whom all state that they are open minded (I may be called open minded but I know I have extreme prejudices against many things regardless of whether I'm aware of them yet or not, but that's my Jihad - Jihad means struggle to any idiots out there I'm not going to kill myself for anyone). Why oh why do people start associated unrelated things together, when they are not related and then have this stubborn attitude that it is. An example being a discussion I had with someone yesterday, somehow the death sentence is heinous, I stated that it can also be a good incentive for people to behave they countered with well the law is corrupt, I agreed however it a system that isn't flawed perhaps it would work, the response was no law is corrupt ... errr then they went on to say if you cannot rehabilitate folk who are murderers they should be killed - my opinion is let the victims' families decide, each crime has it's own justice.
Once I noticed this I started to pick up loads more stuff throughout the day, albeit random users who started bad mouthing Indian call centres to folk telling me I'm too demanding and hence why I cannot find a guy (that is a discussion for another day ...) unfortunately I started behaving as I did 10 years ago, as if I cared and tried to get people to understand the other side, why oh why? People are all annoying, all of them. This is why it's so hard to find a true friend, and then when I've found one I tend to stay away because I cherish the friendship and know I might wreck it, this could be due to me being too eccentric as I usually am or to their partner becoming jealous (still confused why this happens I'm not a person to be jealous over, seriously I have nothing going for me, maybe my eyes (supposedly) are so-so but I don't think I've met a person who I don't think "wow their eyes are so amazing"
No real conclusions, I never have them, it's just an open ended thinking process and I might think something different tomorrow, so toodles for now, whilst I contemplate buying a new bag ...
Friday 24 May 2013
Wednesday 22 May 2013
Monday 20 May 2013
Trey Songz ft TI - 2 reasons
I'm waiting for the day that I stop believing in god, on that day emotional blackmail will mean naught ...
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