So upon self reflection am I punishing mum? She's the one that I cannot go to, any time I've ever told her about her daughter, she's shrugged and said I deserved it. So I don't know, I feel bad but I've lost the ability to be honest to her so if I cannot trust her with the truth can I trust her with anything.
So I'm giving myself a year, I need to be gone, otherwise abroad, or get hitched. To be honest I don't want the hitched thing, that means I might wreck someone else and I don't think I could hack faking niceness.
At least schools starting, it mean I can leave before 6 and come home after. Stop by Morrison's to get a snack otherwise how am I going to eat? Fun times!
Started praying again, I have a feeling I'm doomed so not even sure why I'm bothering but lord knows I am.
