Pillar - Frontline

Hey all!

Long time I know, with whoever actually reads this, maybe I'm just writing to my best friend google ...

Anyhow what do I care about at the moment, erm, well I can finally kneel, I never understood how much I took this for granted!

Also doing up the house, well I'm doing is stripping the paint from the skirting board and then having to varnish it and paint the walls ...

And then you have the everlasteing search for the other half ... meh ... to think when this finishes, it'll be kids and then having to look after them and the cycle continues, I wonder if folk ever feel pressured to get hitched do we ever just jump to escape the rush only to release the cycle is never going to end.

Maybe the most bizarre thing I find is that the potentials all seem to become friends rather then potentials which is weird, the only time I kind of think to myself that those who pay attention to star signs would totally place me as the Aquarian that I am.

Oh well lost my trail of thought so I'm lost in my mind, everyone can have a lovely weekend!

Chrishan - I tried

Okay well what's happenning in the land that is my mind.

Apologies for not3 updating it became a out of site, out of mind.

Well anyhow my mum told me the other day, the best way to lose a friend is to give them money, unfortunately this was after I gave money to a friend, and now I ponder as to whether I lost the friendship and the money or whether I'll ever get it back, it'll take me a few months to back sorted again and anyone who knows me, knows I'm OCD about it, so abit argh but trying to maintain patience, I only hope I pass this test and so don't condemn another should they need the same thing.

Anyhow, take care folk, I've gone domestic for the day, so doing everything bar cooking (maybe I'll venture there one day, but today is not that day!)

Toodles :D

Lupe Fiasco - Words I Never Said ft. Skylar Grey

Hey folk,

Just thought I'd do a quick update, loving Ramadhan, is the best month after all :D

I think I've seen more folk within this month then in the rest of the year. However the exciting time continues, looking within myself to reflect on what I have done and what I plan to do, wondering on each step trying to make good actions a habit and thus become a better person in the end.

Anyhow I'm gone, take care, and look after those around you!

Sami Yusuf - Salaam

Okay well for those who know it's Ramdhan, for those who don't well you just read it!

The first few days leading upto the month I was ill so 3 days of complete bedrest, totally makes me appreciates my body. And then the fasting began, as per usual the hardest part of the fast is not the act of fasting, people across the world deal with tougher trials this physical loss of food doesn't seem to matter that much to me, although I try not to walk past a bakery!

However having spoken to folk this can be quite a trial so maybe I shouldn't discount it, the only thing I know is because I've been fasting since I was young it's something that strikes me as being hard whereas it might do for other folk.

Anyway back to the point, the hardest part that I find is that where you have to monitor yourself, which I should be doing anyway, however something that you start looking at so much more, a time when you make the time to sit, think and comtemplate yourself as a person, for each person this varies.

So in all I'm having loads of me time, half scared as I find my own mind a scary place, having weird dreams and hoping they don't mean anything scary and wondering whether I'm on teh right path or not.

Anyhow back to my comptemplation.

Take Care folks and may you have a wonderful month

Guano Apes - You can't stop me

Hmm okay well I stopped for a while again ... no excuses I just did, my boring life is still boring ...

I went to a wedding so had to do the wholemust get the appropiate clothing and getting ready, and because some people believe make up is a necessary tool in life I started looking at this, I'm been told I'm lucky and have a good base to work with so I thought minimalistic, I'm not gonna do much just the eyes, so thta's what I did, although I did do teh whole concealor and foundation thing, no idea if it helped at all, when I looked in the mirror I saw me, so didn't think too much off it, although the best make up is that which cannot be seen right?

Anyhow so ended up doing it for one of my sisters as well, which turned out to be easier then when I was doing it to myself, so styled it all a bit, not sure if she noticed but meh it was all good, she's got great eyes so hopefully I did them some justice!

Ramadhan next week, the chicken meat has been ordered the kebabs will be made, loving it, although I recall the other day when I was messing with the garlic, I think I may be allergic to it, seeing as my eyes start watering and all that, sister found it amusing, nice to know ...

Anywho, take care for now!

Rim-K - Harraga

Okay well I'm in a thinking mood, I'm not sure whether women actually having a ticking biological clock or not, however I have been noticing kids quite a lot as of late, this might be because I've had to slow down and thus I'm seeing stuff I don't usually see or even that people keep talking to me about it.

Anyone who knows me, knows I'm scared of kids, the deeper reason being I don't want to be a catalyst for them doing any bad, it only takes one thoughtless action, word, etc and bam the kid's changed. Although this is a double edged sword, the change could be for the better or for the worse.

At a meeting that was held at my sister's place I was looking after the kids (I wasn't part of the meeting so attempting to amuse them) and apparently I was a hit the kids loved me, thought I was totally cool, my sister laughed at me as I got far too excited when they were actually able to play mario kart properly. and as I do this a little bit more often then I used to, people appear to be taking notice. And then I think about me as a taskmaster, as I used to mentor kids and as my own brother was my worst pupil I thought I totally failed, however the kids thought I was fair, so pretty neat, all in all. I just hope it doesn't go to my head and I shall endeveour to be better on the next occasion, should it arise.

And then a totally random chance encounter and I met a guy who had the mind of an 18 month baby, I smiled (again the scared factor thing, who wants to changed someone so pure) and apparently I looked like some famous person and so he was quite happy, I wasn't sure how to feel, was totally not sure what to say or do, so just tried to be me, although I suspect I wasn't great at it.

It just makes me ponder would I be a good mother, or just a great aunt (yes I know need to find a guy first, therein lies the dilemma)

And I'll go back to pondering and playing GemCraft Labyrinth and if you haven't played it, you should totally play it, the most epic game ever ...

http://www.kongregate.com/games/gameinabottle/gemcraft-labyrinth

Take Care folk, toodles o/

Love Spit Love - How soon is now

Well I've been living a very boring life at present, just sleep, work, eat ... I should try and fit study in there somewhere although I'm trying to read ...

Anyhow just an apology from me, I just know if I give up doing daily entries then I will just stop it altogether so I'm trying.

Do have a great day though, I've got Ribena so I'm happy!