Mentor Koletiv - Kal Ja

I recall the last thing I ever said to my dad, it being that I never want kids as I fear that I may turn out like him and be a bad parent. I had someone recently say all females "ooh and aah" over little babies. However it appears I'm the exception to his assumption of this sexist comment.

I've never had the urge to fawn over a little one neither do I feel the whole biological clock, the older the get, the less I want kids or marriage. Maybe companionship is something that would make me feel lonely however I'd rather be alone then just settle for something in my bid to not be lonely, to hope that the person I choose to connect my life with will understand me totally, and that my silence will be understood, be this a tense or relaxed one.

Maybe if my communication skills were better I'd be less picky. Bottling things up inside is an age old habit of mine. However this can make situations uncomfortable when people try to show they have more then a passing interest. I'm not pretty and I do not have any real great qualities, I can't cook, cleaning passable and I have the worst temper this side of the hemisphere, why anyone would assume I would like to form a partnership when I know I would not suit them, me being the key point as to why it would not work.

People, the unpredictable weirdoes that they are will continue to confuse me in this quest called life. Oh well work at work, yes only a few understand that.

Take care, o/