Birthdays

I find it bizarre that I don't even bat an eyelid at the passing of my own birthday, but yet, still manage to remember the one of my little brother. I guess it's due to him being my only younger sibling ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE BROTHER :D

Fresh face

Dabke music

So recently the whole selfie for cancer awareness was done. Not at all endorsed by cancer research and rightfully so. I didn't agree with it at all, I don't personally have any friends who suffered from it, but that might be due to me not being a social butterfly ... !

So what do I do, I give a little every month, R & D in this field is a good thing. I never check my bank statement to see whether I can afford it or not, I'd rather cut down my grocery list then stop giving.

I've never lost anyone near and dear to me, bar my nan but I was too young to fully appreciate the loss, and everyone else died before I was born, or got to even know who they were.

However this doesn't mean just because you haven't that you won't, the last gift to the living is death, and I'd rather that everyone has a fighting chance then just give up before it's begun because I failed to plan or care.

So people should give to good causes, because they are good causes, not because some person posted a picture of themselves without make-up which I think is a whole different debate ...

Eyes wide open

The Saturdays - Not Giving Up

I always thought I was transparent,apparently I'm not ...

Half a surprise, half not ... when no one can tell the difference between your laughter and tears then there is isn't much else to say ...

Fear

I just woke up - really tired so had a nap. And realised I have no idea what I've do if an intruder came into the house, I'm a useless ninny ...

This seems to have been due to some attachment training that I went to earlier in the week ... still pondering on my thoughts about it ... I know I definitely saw quite few folk in my mind who had these issues in my mind ...

Robin Hood - Merry Men

The day when folk realize that money is not something I'm partial to, is perhaps the day someone will find the key to unlock the part that remains hidden ...

Josef Salvat - Hustler (SaneBeats Remix)

Masks

David Guerra - The Egg (because the car advert rocks ...)

Anyway masks, everyone has them whether it's folk who hold different ones for different things, social, business, personal, etc. Some hold them in order to hide themselves away from the world, some so out to conquer their fears, others to change themselves so that they become that mask, realising that the mask is something we start to become in delusions of self denial thinking that we are in control.

I remember art uni where I asked a housemate why she write make up, het answer - because I don't want anyone to see me ...

I asked a work colleague why he didn't just leave home when his only outlet was shallow relationships, his response - because she cried ...

Sometimes if not all the time, I look in the mirror and have no idea who I'm staring at, maybe I'm changing or maybe I'm going senile ... scaring myself silly in the meantime ...

The ones who smile the most have seen the most pain, be wary and heed their wisdom ...