Awari

This is the song directly from the film, which I thought was more heartfelt for me whilst watching the movie, although I would probably just listen to the audio as it was a beautiful song:





It was a beautiful piece and when searching for the lyrics the ones I thought best were from:


http://www.bollymeaning.com/2014/06/awari-awaari-lyrics-translation-ek.html 

I've tweaked some of the words below and placed each line next to it's translation, feel free to disagree(!):


The song was used in the Movie Ek Villain, written by Soch who you can also find the song being performed by them (and the plight of the oppressed is better heard when one of those who could be an oppressor speaks up about it)


[Male]
Teri baahon mein jo sakoon tha mila - The peace that I found in your arms
Maine dhoondha bahut tha - I had looked for (that peace) a lot.
Phir na milaa... - Never found it again

[Female]
Duniya chhoona chaahe mujh ko yoon - The world wants to touch me as it wishes
Jaise un ki saari ki saari main - as if I belong completely to them
Duniya dekhe roop mera - The world looks at my physical beauty
Koi na jaane bechaari main - No one knows how wretched I am

[Chorus x 2]
Haaye, tooti saari ki saari main - Oh, I am completely broken
Tere ishq mein hoi Awaari main - I have become a vagabond in your love

Koi shaam bulaaye - Some call for me in the evenings
Koi daam lagaaye - Some set a price on me
Main bhi upar se hansti - I, too, smile on the surface
Par andar se haaye.. - but inside, alas, (I cry)

[Male]
Kyun dard chupaaye baithi hai - Why do you bottle all your pain inside
Kyun tu mujh se kehti hai - Why do you say this to me
Main to khud hi bikhra hua - I am also shattered inside


[Chorus x 2]
Haaye andar andar se toota main - Oh, I'm broken from inside
Tere ishq mein khud hi se rootha main - In your love, I'm become angry with myself

Main jee bharke ro loon - I'll cry as much as I wish

Teri baahon mein so loon - I'll sleep in your arms
Aa phir se mujhe mil - Come, meet me again
Main tujh se ye boloon - I'll tell you these things again
Tu anmol thi - You were a priceless treasure
Pal pal bolti thi - Who spoke in each moment
Aisi chup tu laga ke gayi - Now you are creating such a silence
Saari khushiyaan kha ke gayi - That is ending all the happiness


[Chorus]
Haaye andar andar se toota main - Oh, I'm broken from inside
Tere ishq mein khud hi se rootha main - In your love, I'm become angry with myself

[Female]
Haaye, dethi hoon saari ki saari main - Oh, I give all of myself
phar tere liye bazaari main - However for you I will sell myself


Not sure that I captured the last couple of lines as I wanted, where it indicates more a loss of soul (my interpretation)


The song also takes me back to another song Kaante - Maahi Ve, which I also thought was quite a moving song:







As I'm not fully checking the lyrics I've posted a link showing where someone has already done it:

http://www.ardhamy.com/song/maahi-ve

Years & Years - Take Shelter

So long time no write ...

I'm currently being selfish and have started a new career path, teaching Maths! Who would have thought it, I know I've taught some young people on the fly, usually one-on-one tuition. This is completely different to teaching whole classrooms though.

Trying to find the pace of the whole class is probably the most challenging part of this course so far. Although my first school was all low level behaviour, the key to my second school is apparently rapport ...

No words to say what is happening, however we'll see how the years spans out ... bar informing a kid that yes I have heard of Eminem ...

The Script - Superheroes

Excuses

Sami Yusuf - Ya Allahu Ya Rahmanu

 

Well it's time again, my mum is looking to get her daughters hitched ...

I was watching the above video and perhaps in a degree I agree with him, I have burns on my legs, do I have low self esteem due to this, I'm not sure. However that does mean that if some guy calls me pretty I think I have burns and if you knew would those words have ever been said? Let's not get started on the other imperfections I think I have, but that's my insecurities, there are some good guys that will not see these things and I thank Allah for allowing me to see this, as maybe I would have seen the scars as some impediment.

Marriage, a relationship that brings together 2 families and bring communities together even if only for a short period of time. To hopefully find the lifetime companion in which half the deen can be worked by working together to help each other in our faith and family.

However I have been told many a time that my ideals are too lofty and that I am looking through rose-tinted glasses, I would disagree, I have lived the life I was given for some I have lived a harsh life although when I look at the situation in comparison to the rest of the world I have lived in luxury and am thankful for everything I was given. I would rather look for the best in a relationship and a person then try and play the supposed realist and lower my standards, an example of this was someone telling me that why should I care if my potential partner smokes(?!?).

The biggest thing I look for in a partner is whether I believe they will be a good parent, at the end of the day, it is the future generations that will shape the world and it's these unborn souls that I worry about. I recall my last words to my father and how it still affects me to this day. I forgave my father for he never really did anything to me, it's how he damaged other folk that I sometimes wonder if it's my forgiveness that matters.

And looking back I may have even refused a future because of this fear I have my myself being a parent. I pray that those people found worthy partners because they are wonderful people and deserve that much.

Kabhi Jo Baadal Barse Song Arijit Singh Jackpot 2013

Love

Maher Zain - Guide Me All The Way

Tis the session for Desi folk to ponder on the unwed, as my mother has got daughters who are yet wed, folk deem it acceptable to insinuate that she is lacking as a mother as we are in that state. Even going further by claiming that she is money hungry and thus keeping us single.

I would laugh it off, however I am not my mother and she takes it to heart. Having been kept out of the community for so long, finding acceptance is pretty much just out of reach can be difficult. Luckily I cannot miss what I never had, be this a father's love or a community's acceptance. So I tend to laugh, and when I tell the supposed "Muslim" folk that they have no right, the "gore" (as they deem everyone who they don't believe is Muslim) helped when the Muslim community left us in the lurch, I owe no allegiance to then for them to require me or anyone to bend to their will.

Nevertheless my mum wants us hitched now ... her requirement for a son-in-law at present is one that will take her to umrah whenever she wants ...

So what does one do, I've seen several guys with the whole arranged marriage thing, they come around and you do the marriage interview, I never realised how emotional guys are. The majority of them are waiting for the "click" moment. What? Seriously? What is this mythical moment?

Love at first sight apparently for then is what they are waiting for, idiots, love isn't for the majority of people something you can just see, yes you can make plenty of first impressions this may dictate the nature of the relationship however most folk will have a heart stopping moment to a person who does not see them in the same light. So in essence they spend decades looking for this moment, forgetting all the moments they could have had. Love a compromise from 2 people forging a future together, helping create a better world today in order for their children to inherit the brighter tomorrow ...

Folk have asked me what would happen if I fell in love I would change my mind. No I doubt I would, I have felt attraction, most folk do, however I chose not to act on it. I have to consider more then a blind moment of attraction, I am looking for a lifetime companion not a flavour.

I ask myself do I believe in Islam? That is the first question I asked, it took me a whole year to come to a conclusion, during that time I noticed stuff I had done previously which may have also given the wrong impression, I had worn skinny jeans, yes they were a size bigger than my actual size, but you could still see the body shape, and I wore fitted trousers and shirts to jobs ... life was suddenly more important in the spiritual fashion and the material world slipped away ...

Once I determined that Islam and the creator was more important than creation my life was changed, although I lost some direction which I was losing anyway (still working out of the depression that had started a few years prior to university - note to all - do not bottle up it can crack the psyche) I gained some peace within my soul and felt a calm I had never felt before.

And so like the guy with OCD who would leave his door unlocked I felt my heart yearning for this part of me that was at peace and found in Islam.

So even when I attracted to a non-Muslim I didn't concern myself, I would find a companion to find peace with rather than a temporary fling which would taint my soul and any future actions towards the people who I would face in the future.

So I discovered that most men are idiots ... even years later it appears to still be the case, I even started to wear make-up a couple of years back (my mum got told that it was because we didn't do it that we couldn't find guys - I don't understand the logic so cannot explain) so I went and learnt, took ages and after buying a ton of stuff, my mum finally understood, no its not make-up, we have issues in our family but it's not the expensive make-up.

So what serious Muslim potentials have their been ... a few ... that's all, I don't mind diverging stories of the idiots, however the ones that I let leave wee due to me and I pray they find good partners worthy of them, and then I think it is me. Maybe I should know what love is and not look for a guy who accepts me, even if he doesn't get the sharpness or speed of my thoughts ... as some aunties say find anyone and trap, they then frown when I remind them that a relationship that stays on a lie tends on end because of the same thing ...

Long Live Palestine - LowKey